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The Five Love Languages

2010-12-17T13:21:00.000+08:00

The Five Love Languages

My primary love languages are probably
Acts of Service and Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Acts of Service:		7
Physical Touch:		7
Quality Time:		7
Words of Affirmation:		7
Receiving Gifts:		2

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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2010-11-11T12:57:00.002+08:00

looking back at all my facebook and friendster pics brings back a truckload of memories.

there are many times when we want the clock to stop ticking. but there is no way we can bring back those memories.

time passes by, and human changes.

soon, you will find yourself not the person you thought you knew.

just follow your heart.

2010-09-18T15:13:00.002+08:00

disclaimer: anyone who has been reading this awful blog will find nothing much updated here cos the author is simply too busy. however, this also means that her life have been way too colourful to be described in mere words.

SYOG 2010 has been a long ride of sweat and joy for me. This incredulous experience cannot be described in detail even if i write a book for it. I'm especially fortunate to be blessed with a team of fun and lovely people whom provided me an environment to to learn, to challenge, and to grow. i can't lament enough how time has always been a cruel fact that we have to part someday, to go back to our own lives and make the best out of our individual circumstances. i would love to meet these people again at the frontline of kosen-rufu. my deepest appreciation to them. Thank you Weihao, Dennis, Gina, Xue Ting, Alex, Kuan Leang, fellow Blk A trainers and not forgetting my loveliest group A2:) you guys will always be a part of my life.

apart from being involved in syog, i've found myself a permanent job for a headstart to my working life. this is my 8th week into work and i have been looking forward to work everyday. although being a PA is not a glamourous job it may be to some ppl, i am contented to be able to have met my boss who treated me like his own sister. he taught me a lot of life lessons and is patient to guide me. he was more anxious than me when i checked my results and spent his precious time to encourage me. i cannot be more thankful to him:)

will blog more soon..

2010-08-22T23:42:00.001+08:00

http://www.yonex.com/swf/prswf/badminton_shb92l.html

i am SO gonna get this. my love at first sight.

2010-07-02T02:05:00.003+08:00

I know i shouldn't be feeling this way, not at this time!

But still, i feel so lousy.

I got wind of this through one of my friends from the Fire group. Apparently, one of my participants is seen actively joining the Fire group's activities. During their group dialogue last week, he complained of being bored being a Fish rather than Fire dancer.

As his trainer, i can't help but to ponder, am i not good enough? what did i do wrong? how can i improve? why will he feel this way?

i will not blame anyone.
i feel that i am quite a failure for the past 20 trainings :(

2010-06-15T01:51:00.002+08:00

Cheers to my 200th post! I can't imagine myself writing 200 essays but i did it on my blog. That's something worth celebrating.

Hmmmm... I have been quite irregular in months to update something here. It spells laziness! but bahh, who cares, it's MY blog!

Listening to Sexy Chick by David Guetta, and it's 1.55am now. Gosh, what am i going to blog on?

Well, after my exams, i suddenly lost interest in almost everything. Perhaps there's nothing to focus my concentration on. 18 years of studying and suddenly you are out of it. Something came knocking on my head and said "Time to look for a job!" That's a VERY weird feeling, and i suppose very few feel the same way since a lot of my peers cant even wait to get out of the gilded cage of Singapore education.

I certainly hope this feeling of abnormality will subside once i find a suitable job. At a place where i should be.

As for now, I'm working my ass off giving tuition and dedicating my entire being in SYOG trainings. Mon, Wed, Fri, Sat, Sun - Tuition. Tue, Thur, Sat - SYOG. That's why i constantly feel drained even though i'm a slacko without a job. I just want to say - I still love my family and my egoistic boyfriend, even though i was busy in the expense of spending more time with you. Kisses to my grandma and dear!

I ate a lot, sometimes more than required. Good food are my best friends :)

Mum's trip to KL was bummed cos her bf felt uncomfortable on his heart. Mum was telling me that he was looking more frail as days pass, and told me to chant for his heart problem. She even showed me his photos and dashed like a lil girl to her mobile whenever it rings. I have grown used to hearing her talking about him. And rest my case somehow that she and dad will get back together. What is more important is that they are both happy :)

Every Sat morning, when i go to my tutor my Sec 1 boy, I will see how his parents communicated. I feel very sad for him and his sister when they had to intervene into their parents' harsh comments on one another. It is unhealthy and unfortunate for the children if the parents' marriage is on the rocks.

More often than not, i think to myself, what's the use of marrying when you know this is how your happy ending will turn out?

Whatever. I just feel insecure.

2010-06-04T02:53:00.001+08:00

this was shown to me by one of my participants.

this boy is seriously cute.

i wonder if he knows what he is singing. lol.

CLICK HERE

2010-06-04T00:57:00.007+08:00

I hate watching taiwan idol dramas.

They are too much of a fantasy.

It's always the rich and the poor. The smart ass and the stupid-est. The playboy and the innocent girl. Either would get terminal illness and manage to survive. And it's always the girl whose family got bankrupt. What's new?

Recently, i enjoyed watching one though. It's My Queen (bai quan nu wang). The storyline is not fanciful and it is a simple love story between a career woman and a guy who is younger than her by 8 years old. Very real-life depicted.

No princess. No playboy. No bankruptcy. No boy groups. Just a simple yet tumultuous love journey between 2 supposedly parallel lines.

所謂敗犬泛指已過適婚年舲還是單身的女人

即便她美麗又能幹

她生活ok 品味絕佳

她工作ok 所向無敵

只有在那一刻她覺得不太ok

她單身但她擁有在雨奔跑的勇氣

　誰說單身就是敗犬

　在我心裡妳是女王....

2010-06-04T00:52:00.001+08:00

When things do not go your way, what would you do?

I will eat.

Eating makes me forget my unhappiness:(

2010-04-08T00:09:00.001+08:00

the coming 2 months will be the most hectic of all.

FOR THE WIN.

2010-03-31T13:23:00.009+08:00

The song i can never stop listening to. Green day & the Cast of American Idiot

CLICK HERE

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Does someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

2010-03-30T23:40:00.001+08:00

Brunch
Yong Tau Foo
Hot Milo

High Tea
Sweet Corn Waffle

Dinner
Fried Kuay Teow
Hot Barley
Fish Soup

Supper
Minced Meat Noodle

Am i eating too much? I can't seem to control myself :S

2010-03-19T02:20:00.002+08:00

at this time, at this moment, someone out there yearns. someone out there longs.
even in her dreams.

for a complete family.

how can you, being a father of 3, be neglectful of a girl's simple wish?

my heart goes out to this bestie of mine.
and many others, who has been carrying this torch of hope.

never give up hope!
we do not owe our happiness to others.

we strive for our own.

2010-03-12T00:47:00.003+08:00

Jack Neo's press conference is indeed thought-provoking.

Perhaps there are some people out there like me who feel equally unjust for his wife.

A successful man with a good wife and family should count his blessings.

A good man wouldn't continue cheating on his wife even though she knew and kept mum.

And if you are still a man, for goodness sake please don't make her clean your ass for you. Making her appear at the press conference, facing silent persecutions from strange faces and camera flashes is akin to making her stand on trial and being charged guilty for marrying the wrong man.

Only a moron would do that.

2010-03-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

Thankfully, Aunt Flo didn't give me much problem this month.

Fish Leong is a great singer, i like her songs very much. After seeing her wedding video, i am really happy for her! And her Vera Wang gown is sweet and gorgeous. I hope i can have the chance to gown in a Vera Wang someday. Hey, that's every girl's dream ok.

Fish Leong and Tony Chao from Mayad Studios on Vimeo.

I am looking forward to the first training tmr!

my fav author

2010-03-04T01:39:00.009+08:00

i guess once the writing stint kicks in, you just can't stop writing.
i hope that goes the same for my revision.
i just pray hard that i will get 'addicted' to studying as much as i am to playing mahjong.
(Oh btw, my determination is not to touch mahjong before JUNE! i better keep this ringing in my head)

In any case, for this post, i am gonna talk 'bout my fav author - Tess Gerritsen!
Her new book will be coming out on 27th July. And i will be sure to visit the library everyday to make sure i reserve a copy of it. I can still remember on that day the previous book was released, i reserved it immediately and was already the 36th on the list :( But i got a few of her signed bookmarks! I just wrote in and didn't expect her to return my mail. *thrilled*

I do read her blog occasionally, for updates and her interesting stories. I subscribed to her mailing list too, although most of the mails are her book events over there - nothing to do with Singapore, unfortunately.

Check this out! Tess Gerritsen is the 17th most borrowed adult fiction author in UK libraries — right under John Grisham. I am happy for her!

Jane Rizzoli/ Maura Isles series: (to be read in order)
~~THE SURGEON (2001)~~
~~THE APPRENTICE (2002)~~
~~THE SINNER (2003)~~
~~BODY DOUBLE (2004)~~
~~VANISH (2005)~~
~~THE MEPHISTO CLUB (2005)~~
~~THE KEEPSAKE (UK title: KEEPING THE DEAD) (2008)~~
ICE COLD (UK title: The Killing Place) (2010)

Her stand-alones medical thrillers:
~~HARVEST (1996)~~
LIFE SUPPORT (1997)
~~BLOODSTREAM (1998)~~
~~GRAVITY (1999)~~
~~THE BONE GARDEN (2007)~~

Romantic suspense novels:
CALL AFTER MIDNIGHT (1987)
~~UNDER THE KNIFE (1990)~~
NEVER SAY DIE (1992)
~~WHISTLEBLOWER (1992)~~
PRESUMED GUILTY (1993)
IN THEIR FOOTSTEPS (1994)
~~PEGGY SUE GOT MURDERED (1994)~~
KEEPER OF THE BRIDE (1996)
THIEF OF HEARTS (1995)

The RIZZOLI AND ISLES drama serials will be premiering this summer on TNT. Goddamn Starhub doesn't have that TNT! ARGH........... Well, i shall voice my dissatisfaction on her web :p
I can't wait to watch what i have read, live on TV!

Boston Homicide Detective Jane Rizzoli (Angie Harmon)

Boston Medical Office's Medical Examiner Maura Isles (Sasha Alexander)

FBI Agent Gabriel Dean (whom later became Jane's husband :p) (Billy Burke)

I only uploaded the pics of the main casts. But after looking at the rest of the pictures, i must say that the casting team is good. Most of the actors and actresses gave me the exact feeling of how they should look like as described in the books. Though i thought Maura Isles should look younger rather than like one of the desperate housewives (she is a forensic pathologist you see? minimal makeup and stuff)

Their poise is there at the right place where they should be, and their portrayal of the behaviour of the characters will be for us to find out soon in time to come ;)

Sneakshots from the scene:
Rizzoli and Isles

Dean and Director Michael M. Robin

I CAN'T WAIT TO CATCH THE SERIAL!

2010-03-03T22:59:00.003+08:00

Thanks Chester for reminding me that my last post was 27 Jan.
I felt, however, that it seemed like eons ago since i posted anything up here.
I may have gotten (even more) lazy. Or maybe time has been passing rather slowly.

CNY to me is another dreaded routine of house-hopping and probably the only good thing for the singles is collecting ang bao. I got a total of ard $500 when i was only active for the first day. Spent a lil, and the rest went to the bank to repay my study loan. it is definitely not an easy thing maintaining the constant commitment to pay every month. i wish i can graduate faster.

SYOG trainings are starting officially this Sat, and i look forward to having a good time with my group. More challenges, more sweat, but definitely more fun. A2 is gonna rock on the field and in the water.

Last week, i did a quick mental calculation of my income this month, from my work and including the ang bao $. Cheekily, i placed $2 of 4D bets seeing that it was quite a beautiful no. 1230.

It turned out that the first prize was 1238. It was probably one of the biggest heartaches i have ever had sensing 4K within my grasp but in another person's hand. And my boss told me just now that her husband had striked lottery again, being the THIRD time this month. URGH. i guess thats how addiction come about; people believe that they will win someday if they continue betting.

WHY DIDNT ANY KIND SOUL PUT 8 BUCKS MORE INTO MY ANGBAO.

2010-01-27T12:59:00.001+08:00

i dun even feel like going for sd kenshu.
can i dun go.

2010-01-13T14:16:00.004+08:00

I always have this same weird dream of mine.

The subsequent scenes took place in a hospital. I dunno how and why, another girl and i took out the floor tiles and so we are able to see the man one storey below us. We dripped blood onto him so that he would thought that it was from the ceiling. and then he gave chase.

girl and i ran into the wards. we intended to hide below some beds, but since the man was just one storey below us, we have to disguise ourselves. we snatched a sarong from a malay patient, took a wheelchair and the drip. I disguised as the female malay patient while girl is the nurse wheeling me out.

We went into the lift and two middle-aged women are chatting. I kept begging them for a hairclip as my ponytail will give me away. One of them relented and gave me her hairclip. I was so appreciative that i asked for her name and where she was working; i intended to repay my gratitude someday. It turned out that she was working at JAL and she told me her name but i forgot. (that is the annoying part of dreams, we always forget the little details and the pieces of puzzle that makes up the big picture)

We went out of the lift and spotted immediately the guy at the road. we ran all the way to the bus stop and saw some friends there. took bus with them to clarke quay for steamboat and then continue running till we reach my grandma hse. in the end girl was fetched home by her aunt.

WHAT A WEIRD AND SCARY DREAM.

2010-01-04T03:05:00.003+08:00

I enjoy blogging in the middle of the night.
It is the silence that keeps my mind running.
And it is also the time where emotion peaks.

A very Happy New Year to all :)

Like every other year, I believe 2010 will be a year of victory for the determined; a year of status quo for the hesitant; a year of failure for the unplanned.

I feel that it is important that we set resolutions at the beginning of every year so that we renew our determination and refresh our spirit for a brand new start.

My resolutions/main focuses for 2010:
1. Go full force for my studies
2. Absolute success for SYOG (Singapore Youth Olympic Games)
3. Be financially independent
4. Family problems to be solved (hopefully by this yr)
5. Learn driving

It is never easy to do in accordance but i think we should never stop trying.

The trainers and key appointment holders of SSA-SYOG held our first audition ytd(Sun). The turnout was better than expected to near 200 participants, which is almost a third of our total strength for the performance for the Opening Ceremony.

There will be another audition held next Sat and perhaps another one the week later. I am looking forward to bond with everyone for our coming 6 months of training. Though i can foresee lots of tears and sweat amidst my busy preparation for final exams and work.

With the help and encouragements from Jianli and my friends, nothing is going to bring me down. I am Stella the bobo doll :)

2010-01-03T02:26:00.001+08:00

Christina Applegate

"Call us back right away. That 'three day' crap does not apply. We're getting older and we don't have time to screw around. Wait too long and we'll lose interest. Trust me on this one."

Maria Bello

"We're afraid of commitment, too. You may think we spend our time scheming ways to trap you into marriage, but many of us are quite happy being independent and autonomous. Besides, we're not in any rush to quit lusting after young Calvin Klein models."

Jennifer Love Hewitt

"PMS is not a lame excuse to be able to yell at you. It's a great excuse."

2009-12-30T03:19:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow i'll be starting 2010 anew with a Primary 1 class.

Another year of 48 lessons with them, another experience with the kids.

Hehehe.

两个月的点点滴滴

2009-12-22T01:46:00.012+08:00

It seems that I have been absent a little longer than what I - and you - had expected. Time just goes by so fast. Can you believe 2009 is already drawing to its end?

I had a haircut quite some time ago. I wanted resemblance to Linda Chung (aka 常在心). So, i showed my hairdresser her picture in my phone. Fortunately, she has been watching 溏心风暴 every night then, and so she knows what i want :)

Let's see.

Ok la. Mai hiam buey pai. Hehehe. I have very little hair so cannot blame.

Celebrated alot of ppl's bday lately:
AlanAmanda Ha(Ha-Jie)Amanda TanMin LingYuk Lum
Attended 2 weddings already:
my 大老板 Cindy
and chapter chief Huiling. (2 more coming up. OMG why so many ppl getting married at this downturn)

AND we also received the arrival of a newborn! Heartiest congrats to Wei Cai, my sec sch classmate. Her baby is lovely!
From 30th Nov-4th Dec, SIM peeps from ITAC-SD also held our annual Peace exhibition in school. The theme this year is Building a Culture of Peace for the Children of the World.
I also went out with my sister to City Square Mall. (nothing much there)
Met up with my kindergarten besties too.
Last but not least, i also finished teaching my K2 class in Berries. After spending 48 lessons with them, I super 舍不得! the funny thing is, i had painstakingly prepared for them Disney stationery sets with handwritten msg. but i was so emo for our last lesson that i FORGOT TO GIVE THEM. T_T

Here is a pic of my fav student.SUPER CUTE RIGHT!! :P i hope my boss doesn't see this or else i'm dead meat. hehe. i know im nt supposed to be biased but i did make sure i never show it.

A few of us went to Alan's hse to play with his brother's pet chinchilla. His name is Dusty and was born on 28 Feb. So cute...... I searched the net and found some pics of chinchilla that looks like Dusty: Alan kept telling us how scheming Dusty is and how crafty he is in order to get his freedom out in the living room. I dun think Dusty has a plot of his own; only human beings are capable of doing that. Dusty loves playing tug-of-war using tissue paper and gets into spasm easily in sight of raisins (and ice maybe?) i think Alan or his brother should create a fans page for Dusty, and i'll be his no.1 fan :)

We watched 十月围城 (Bodyguards and Assassins)
I give it 4.5/5 stars. Bcos i felt super traumatised after watching, which is good cos that shows that it has an impact on its viewers. Apart from having award-winning Peter Chan as producer, it also has a number of 大牌 like 梁家辉、曾志伟、李宇春、谢霆峰、黎明、张学友、任达华 and my fav 甄子丹 etc; gave viewers' eyes some "ice-cream" lol.

The story is about how a group of common ppl come tgt and try to protect 孙中山 at the expense of their lives and their loved ones. He arrived in Hong Kong for a meeting with 13 representatives with the aim to overthrow Cixi's prepotency on China and bring about a revolution for democracy. Hence, Cixi sent her generals and assassins to assassinate him at all costs, bringing down everyone whom propose obstructions. It is a movie filled with cruelty and grief and a cost resulted from a REAL scheming woman.

As for the 0.5 stars deducted, i shant be a spoiler. Will reveal when time is right :)

SO, this is a must-watch and i must say the best Chinese movie of the year.

goodbye my love

2009-11-06T23:03:00.010+08:00

It does seems a lil weird not meeting Elleen for supper tonight, as we did every other night for the past week. Nonetheless, i shall spend my time wisely by writing a gd post up here.

Last Sunday, the bunch of us went to Siloso Beach for a 1 vs 9 Frisbee invitational by Chester.
It was obviously a flop of his plan, as the 1 whom the other 9 are going to challenge chickened out. Elleen was invited rather last min as her boss ate the wrong pill somehow and granted her a Sunday off the day before. The guys should seriously thank me for that. *wink*

Anyway we had lotsa fun there, from playing frisbee to beach volleyball to horsing around in the waters. That was a day i totally enjoyed myself. I have never had so much fun for a long time. You know, I had been bugging Chester for a frisbee game yet he kept putting it off. I then learnt from Alan that Chester organised this outing after he read my blog post on Oct 24th. No wonder. I was no doubt very touched by his "hidden agenda" behind these, and i was thinking "Hey man, this is the reason why Ghz put me here in SIM."
Because i will have great friends.
My hand injuries from all the fun (omg, they would say)

What i needed most actually came from my friends. It has been long since someone did something for me. Recently, i'm blessed with fun with these buddies and i thought i am the luckiest and happiest girl on Earth. Thanks to you guys especially Chester and Alan and definitely for sure, Elleen, my closest sister and confidante. Although no one can foresee what will happen to us in years ahead, but for now i know we have not let our precious youth go to waste with this karmic bond bestowed upon us.

Love is not something you expect the other party to know. The way to show a drama is to show it, not tell. Just like this. It was written by Josiah, Jianli's buddy in OCS. He can even quote with the contents of the Bible which is amazing. (I will marry the guy who will be able to do it in the context of Gosho, haha jk) It takes courage for a man to do something like this on Facebook. I'm impressed by his unwavering love for his gf, and im certain they will have a happy ending :)

I had a HTHT with my mother yesterday. (HTHT = heart to heart talk, credits to NTU) I confessed to her everything that has happened to me. I showed her pictures, of Elleen, of my SIM friends and those who really care for me. So if you are reading my blog now, yeap you are most likely included in the list. I expressed my feelings to her how devastated i am by everything that is crumbling in my life.

I decided to let it go. What i am undergoing is never known to someone who has a happy family, someone who has decided to go gaseous without any reason the time when i needed him most. Even though i may be in the wrong, where are you when i needed you most? Do you still think of me before you go to slp?

Not as though these answers matter.

Not anymore.

Too bad we will never hit year 5.

I make the decision. I know you are waiting for someone to do that.
Let me be the one. "Stella initiated this", you can say.

We can blame no one but ourselves. This problem has been with us long time ago. Even our friends can see it, yet none of us has the courage to face it squarely. Be strong, my dear. You will be able to find someone better than me very soon :) I'm not sure if we can be normal friends again, but you are someone whose happiness is especially vital to me.

Perhaps to me, you are not the one i lose. I am someone you have lost; someone who is irreplaceable, someone who has loved you with all her heart.

And someone who you will never have back again.

i am a fierce teacher!

2009-10-29T22:52:00.003+08:00

Thanks Kiya! =D

I did something really bad today.

Out of my 2 years of teaching at Berries, this was the first time i ever punished a student.

But he really got out of hand; shoving and playing afool with another student on our way to the storytelling room. It was cumulative, allow me to add, since the start of the year. He has always been the "big bear" of the class and him being hyperactive, he often gets in trouble disturbing other kids.

So, i punished him in front of everyone by making him stand outside the room while the rest enjoy their favourite part of the lesson in the room. Storytelling is the favourite part of the kids' programme. Sort of only entertainment for that 1.75 hrs.

As the room has glass panels, he often peeked in and looked at me pitifully. I didn't buy that though, cos i always let him, but not this time round. Even though the principal threw a glance at me in amusement cos she cannot believe that i would punish a student. Kaijie needed to be taught a lesson. Seriously.

Sigh, it really pains me to do that, but i do hope he learns his lesson.

We still have 6 more lessons to go for the year, out of 48. And i love them more and more.

I really do :)

flu... and headache

2009-10-28T18:56:00.003+08:00

As you well know, light is part of the visible electromagnetic scale. There are also lights that are part of the invisible electromagnetic spectrum, such as infrared and ultra violet light, which I seldom use because no one can see them. Now insculpting a scene, or better yet, to paint a scene to create a certain mood I always make sure I balance Huygens theory of light reflection and refraction. Which explains the light in the 440 nanometers range to the 500 nanometer range, is perceived by us as Red, the colour I would tend to use when lighting a scene, a hot sensual scene between characters that have been previously established as powerful sexual partners. Sort of like "we need to have each other" or "aware of the circumstances" type of people. But of course, Planck's theory of light is actual measurable particles or quanta proves that light is more of a wave particle phenomenon than anything gives me the opportunity to interchange these colours and very few people would be able to tell the difference consciously.

Translate this.

thanks Kiya, although i dunno who you are =)

vengefully me and my rhetoric

2009-10-24T00:14:00.006+08:00

when one gets down on her luck, even the CUP NOODLES has something to say.

i can't believe out of the thousand times i ate cup noodles, this is the first time i encounter a leaking cup. wtf? it is neither cup noodles nor instant noodles anymore. i have to transfer the contents into a bowl before soaking the noodles with hot water again. waste my time.

today is just not my day. whenever the mother returns, the mama-drama repeats again. i mean, if she is not happy to come back, just dont! i regretted not going to work this afternoon. i always avoided her but today i was really tired.

once she stepped into the house, she started making banging noises by handling things roughly. then she screamed at me for putting my shoes around instead of stacking them up. i seriously tried my best to not agitate her and did as she told. anyway, it's just 2 pairs of shoes we are talking abt here, i dont even have a shoerack to mess up for goodness sake.

for a millionth time she complained about us making her life difficult. told me that she can't wait to divorce dad, cant wait to get her new life, her plans to sell the house away after the divorce (cos' the law says so for divorced couples).......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................bla bla bla

i snapped. i told her "pls get the divorce done immediately. i can't wait to move out."

then she snapped. and we quarrelled. i bet our neighbours could hear us loud and clear. for father, i have no plans to stay with him. what he has given me for my childhood was painful and unforgettable, no matter how great he is now. and there is no way that im gonna stay with her and her DARLING and call someone else my stepfather.

i am really fucking tired of this shit. she always has this ability to make me feel that i am a baggage to her.

where is my happy family? i don't know.

i never did.

no matter how nicely the marriage vows were written and spoke of, they are just a pack of bullshit and lies.

even 20 years of marriage can end up like this. then, what is a 4-years relationship compared to this? i dont wanna let go. but you seem willing and prepared to. i just wanted a break for us. i know we both need that. then you took the chance. didn't bother to contact me for more than a month. SMSed you that we need to chant for us, hoping that something will work out. i thought we seriously ought to do that. No reply from you.

ah, i know. silent breakup. rather popular nowadays, isn't it? i am just spiteful that it is so easy for you. 4 long years. BOOMZ is a right word to use here.

best friend also on the verge of breaking up with her boyfriend. we really do everything together :)

among my SIM clique, one hopelessly fell for another whom is happily attached, another two are ending it sour. good friends should remain status quo. otherwise, nothing is worth treasuring.

these are things which i dont really want to pen down here as i know ppl are reading. i've seldom talked about my family, my personal relationships here cos there are ppl out there whom are seriously concerned. sorry for letting you see the expletives and ugly side of me.

i will be good :) i will pursue happiness that is rightfully mine. i will marry someone whom loves me with all his heart(hopefully) and thinks that i am his special one. i will never let my marriage fail. and i will give my children the best family their mummy never had.

a lil drink, a lil drunk

2009-10-18T01:33:00.005+08:00

im feeling a bit out of the blue right now.. so perhaps it is a good time to do a lil experiment: i will blog and will take a look at it tmr to see whether i typed anything funny :)

well, it's my first time to Villa Bali; a nice cosy place at a remote corner near habourfront to chill out and to celebrate Chester's 24th birthday.

There were 8 of us, and they order a bottle of The Macallan, which is a 12-yr old single malt scotch whiskey. i was hesitant to drink actually, but i did in order not to dampen their celebratory spirits.

After we downed a few cups due to forfeits from games, ard 3 of them started to become sluggish. While on the contrary, Socks became super high and urged us to push on for more exciting games (she was getting drunk too, we deduced)

Surprisingly, i was rather clear-headed. Credits to my dad for giving me the genes for alchohol tolerance, i realised. Though i won't abuse that for sure.

KK was there too, and everyone is out to get him down. He insisted not to drink and spoilt everyone's mood by drinking one of our mixer. HELLO? who the hell will drink green tea at Villa Bali?!

Socks and Isabel then tried to be funny by pouring Macallan into the green tea without him noticing. We smoked our way by adding more ice, claiming that we were diluting and assured him that it was safe.

Anyway we(or rather, Socks and Isabel) didn't succeed, as KK need to leave early to catch the last train home.

We did finish the bottle at the end; with Chester feeling nauseous and Socks going to the toilet totalling abt 5-6 times. I was pleased with myself, not after i downed that spiked green tea not wanting any wastage. It did not taste 40% at all and i thought my mind was playing trick on me. The bill came up to ard $240, and we paid and left the place. But that was when i started to feel a bit giddy while we were walking out.

My face flushed while on the cab with Kelvin and Alan, and my sister said i smelled weird upon reaching home(not knowing that i had alchohol and i dun wanna let her know). When i looked into the mirror i certainly looked delirious with the bloodshot eyes. Hell yes i think i am semi-drunk.

It was an experience for me; and honourably dedicated to Chester. It doesnt feel good to be somewhere "hanging" in between being drunk and not.

I am still against drinking, although i know it sounds ridiculous. But because now that i have experienced it for myself, i certainly would not want to touch any of these except on special occasions like today.

Drink responsibly is the crux to the art of drinking. Cheers :)

*a nice song from One Republic - Stop & Stare*

2009-10-09T12:40:00.006+08:00

I AM SELECTED FOR THE JOB!

YAY!

2009-10-09T03:23:00.003+08:00

My dad started his new job today (yesterday, to be exact) at SMRT after a month of scouting. Though i didn't probe much on his reason for the resignation, i believe he knows what he was doing. I hope he will be happy with the change.

As for me, as i have rejected getting allowances from dad, i've been looking out for part-time assignments in order not to burst my sorry budget. All-in-all, i had sent out 9 applications. I got replies from 3, 2 of which are online scams for home-based typist and the legendary multi-level marketing (MLM). I am lucky that i did not fall prey to the unorthodox.

I went for an interview/test today for that last reply i got from my application. It is an established US media firm looking to expand their market in asia pacific. The position which applied for requires me to do translations of TV scripts from English to Chinese. I was late as I lost my way amongst the skyscrapers at Raffles Place.

It took me slightly more than an hr to translate passages on Cameron Diaz, Katy Perry and Zooey Deschanel, as well as short conversations from Bride Wars. It was rather knotty at certain ambiguous phrases. (afterall, this is a test right?)

Let me see, one of which is "Your wedding can suck it!" I made a lousy attempt to google the meanings for "suck". You should know what results i got. I gave up eventually, admitting silently that i am not very good in English afterall. I typed "你的婚礼会有很惨的下场！" Well this is the best i can do. *shrugs*

Take it as an experience learnt. It will be a bonus if I'm selected.

For this i cross my fingers.

i hate boomz

2009-10-07T03:27:00.006+08:00

Since i cant go to slp, might as well post a entry here.

One thing i hate about night pour is the thunder roll.

At 6.20am this morning, i was startled awake by a loud and threatening one. With credits to Ris Low, it indeed sounded like "BOOMZ". (now everyone is using it including my lecturers) Anyway, it jolted me out of my slp and left me awaken since then. I got up early, since I was afraid to go back to slp.

I went to sch early and had my breakfast. Had my ISORG lecture at 8.30am. It was quite a feat for me to stay awake by the 2nd lecture at 3.30pm. Plus there were a few irritaing guys sitting behind me whom just wouldn't keep their mouth shut. Fancy discussing tactics on how to woo girls in a lecture. Losers.

Was supposed to go Weisheng's hse but when i was abt to reach my dad phoned me about the cancellation of the meetup. Hence i had decent rest on my 2-hrs bus rides. I hope i didnt show any unglam scene.

Well i think blogging has therapeutic effect on insomnia. My eyelids are getting heavy.

Good night.

2009-10-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

Jac and I visited Chin Huat at Bright Hill yesterday. It will be his 1st death anniversary next Sat. Time really flies.. I can still remember the moment when he lost his last breath right in front of us.

How fragile and unpredictable life is.

Since my late grandfather "resides" nearby, we went to pay respect to him as well. It has been a long time since i last visited him. My bad, grandpa.

I went to school for HRM after that. I seriously thought that i should change lecturer. Unfortunately almost all my lecturers are different frm my friends, and crashing class of another lecturer is risky. He is super digressive and ended up rushing through the impt points. But i got a hunch that i will suffer if i stay with him.

I am disillusioned. I have come to a point where i do not know what i really want. Nothing seems right and worth my effort fighting for. I want everything to be the best yet i dunno how to go about doing it. I want my life to be victorious with no regrets.

I will fight for myself :)

a world of uncertainties

2009-09-30T00:22:00.006+08:00

Sleeping soundly on a 3-4 grand Simmons mattress?

You may want to take note that the second largest mattress company, Simmons Co., had trouble sleeping instead. It said "good night" on 25 Sept as it plans to file for bankruptcy protection.

And our highly debated Miss World Singapore Ris Low had given up on her crown since the revelation of her crime last week. Her punctured English on Straits Times' Razor interview has also been a humilating slap on locals' face and a ridiculed hit of the headlines in local media.

Poor girl, she must be feeling wretched at this moment. Being only 19, she has to face the nation's criticism against her discourse, although i must admit that i had the urge to press the stop button halfway through the interview. Well, it had been a roller-coaster ride for her. Just wish her all the best for her future endeavours :)

a simple yet meaningful day

2009-09-27T22:10:00.004+08:00

Today was Paya Lebar zone's zadankai @ HQ. It has been a long time since i last attended meetings, i enjoyed it alot.

Before that, i went to do zaimu for myself and my mother. I approached the counter where V.GD Mr Loh was serving, and he started talking to me about her daughter Su Xin. He complained that she was not attending NUSSD meetings and hope that i could encourage her more.

Some parents never stop worrying about their children. This is how great their love is. Like how my grandma never stop nagging me to take my meals and about me being skinny and pale.

A few days ago i dreamt that my grandma was killed in a monster attack (sometimes my dream can be THAT bizarre). And i was crying my heart and lungs out, regretting that i had not done enough for her. When i woke up, you have no idea HOW relieved i was, and i could still feel the suffocating pain in my heart. I hate this kind of dream.

Anyway after the meeting, i met Tam and brought her to Chinatown's Vietnamese restaurant for late lunch. She was rather excited and i asked her to recommend a few hometown dishes for us. We chatted alot and she told me about her family and friends back at her hometown. Then we passed by AH BALLING! hahaha. bought a bowl and we shared. it was her first time trying and i finally found someone whom appreciates ginger soup as much as i do! :D

i miss ah balling.............

first day of school

2009-09-26T01:28:00.002+08:00

Tuesday was supposed to be my first day of school, but i was ill. Hence, today is my first day. Was rather excited about it.

Since NUS and NP are having their recess and break, it was a complete luxury to have the whole bus to myself this afternoon.

I really enjoy bus rides to school. Cos bukit timah road is a long long stretch of road with bordering beautiful trees as canopies to the scorching blaze.

I looked at my school and was thinking to myself, "so long.." Hahaha, sounds dramatic. This is what happens when you have a 4 months looooong break.

My lecture is at 7pm. Yes a part-time lecture timing for full-time students like me, this is how sucky SIM timetable booking system is.

But i believe everything happens for a reason :) attending classes alone may not be a bad thing afterall.

Mgmt Sci Methods (MSM) is super boring, especially when it is a quantitative subject. The lecturer spent half of his lecture going through the intro of the unit and the brief contents of every topic, which i had no idea why he has to do this. And then he snail through topic 1 and made everyone slug home with a 2 rims thick set of notes.

Hope Human Resource Mgmt (HRM) lecturer will be more "humane" for tomorrow's lecture. YES a sat class.

Bless me.

cool guys don't look at explosions

2009-09-21T03:23:00.001+08:00

Chester just showed me this clip which i thought was rather funny.

the ugly truth

2009-09-21T02:30:00.002+08:00

the ugly truth is,

when you are ugly, you are nothing.

if you think i'm wrong, read the previous line again.

if you are a pretty woman, everyone treats u better.
boyfriend included.

Men are from Mars.

我的快乐会回来的！

2009-09-20T01:42:00.002+08:00

Have added a new song to my playlist!
我的快乐 by 锦绣二重唱 (one of the songs from 命中注定我爱你)
Meaningful lyrics :)

真希望每一个人都会快乐.
recently, one of my friends told me that he got his happiness.
i'm really happy for him; he rightfully deserves it.

Had a great and tiring day today!
Attended an options trading preview seminar with Jianli in the morning.
More of refresher from my corporate finance though i did learn something new.
The actual 4-days course is $5,997.
We made our exit FAST :D

We finally caught The Proposal, as i wish.
Sandra Bullock is forever so charming :)
It was when we went to Jianli's friend's bdae party after that that we realised that Ryan Reynolds and his ex-gf in The Proposal casted in

Harold & Kumar!
It was my first time watching and i finally got to learn how really lame the show is.
Jianli explained that they were still greenhorn then.
Well i guess everything's got to start somewhere, isnt it :)

School's gonna start soon.
im starting to have some mixed feelings.
i got a feeling that im not gonna perform well,
yet on the other hand the voice in me says i can.

2 more days to buffer my confusion.

rumblings and such

2009-09-18T06:01:00.004+08:00

Now playing: the famous song from Heart of Greed - My love will get you home by Christine Glass

i hate procrastination but i am actually procrastinating!

been 2 month since i lifted my fingers to jam www.blogger.com into my explorer link.

in my last post i promised an entry on the double-sided facet of our homegrown citizens. i have second thoughts now and decided not to.

want a taste of it? take a mrt ride at 6pm and you will have the synopsis. to know inside-out outside-in, take that ride for a week. i guess i have better things to blog on :)

Going on a trip is an annual affair for my fellow schmates and i. we started it only last year actually, spearheaded it with Bangkok and this year, Malacca. we are hoping to go on our grad trip next yr to Japan if we have enough $$, if not Taiwan is a good alternative nevertheless.

Anyway, regrettably AND lamentably, our school chose to release our results to us 4 days before our trip. As the horror remains fresh in our mind, the papers were incredibly set in such a way that we know what to expect. Nobody did well, except for KK whom will only send our blood boil in incredulity.

When i tried logging in the UOL website, it amazingly got through even though the UK release time is supposedly 7 hours behind local time. That's the only consolation i got. I dun actually care what i get for other units, but Marketing. I scored a (to me)disastrous 2nd-lower grade although i was confident of the paper when others complained of its difficulty. I became skeptic of my ability to do well. Surprisingly, my accounts scored an upper grade and i passed my corporate finance reasonably even though the unit has a high failure rate this year.

As for my management math, when i see that i failed by 2 marks, i glee with joy. This means that i have another chance to do well for the resit next sem, which i rather want than to breeze through with a 'just passed' grade on my cert.

Hence, the Malacca trip is impt for us to perk ourselves up from the unhappiness and to renew our determination to strive for our final year when sch reopens.

It was a bonus for me to go on another trip to KL with Jianli & family. It was truly a break for me as the lifestyle there is laid back and relaxing with good food and fresh air. Even though i dun undertstand their Cantonese dialect, but i feel the love and family warmth lingering in the atmosphere. I truly enjoyed the moments spent with them as i have never been on a family trip before. Although im down with stomach problems upon my return, I couldnt ask for more.

I am fired up and all ready to face yet another battle in the upcoming sem.

BUT I'VE GOT A DAMN SUCKY TIMETABLE. imagine going school for only 3 days in a week - tuesday, friday AND saturday!

*pouts..................................*

what

the

hell.

Now playing: No surprise by Daughtry's new album. my diary has nothing to do with this song. i just like the beat of it.

*posted on Friday, 18 September 2009, 7.32am(yes! cos i cant slp!)*

heal the world

2009-07-16T00:29:00.003+08:00

i should be chirping my way through the night since it was thousand years ago the last time i updated my blog.

on second thoughts, no. Elleen has made me her shopping mate tmr morning to Art Friend at 10am. so i will try to keep this post at length.

have started working at Popular in J8 last month. cant rem how long was it ago that i felt that money was not impt. how i wish my 3rd last post will come true someday; doing things that i really want. sometimes i would thought i had reached the threshold of my tiredness and my mind would just snap and i would drop dead on the ground.

that was an exaggeration, though. i just need a holiday or a short getaway to unwind myself. hehe.

working in a bookstore is a lil dream come true, actually. all along i thought it was toil-free and enjoyable working in an oil-free environment basked in the smell of new books. but reality rejected the hypothesis totally. i am working at the stationery dept. and there are always incoming stocks and outgoing returns, as unpopular products find themselves shelved away and replaced by other novelties.

it is a totally new working experience for me. on my first day, the 1st question my colleagues threw to me was "Are you a malaysian or singaporean?" I found out later that 90% of my colleagues in the store are Malaysians including my supervisor and store manager. not quite a shocking truth but it surprised me nontheless. They are nice people though, and they like to call me "xiao mei" as i look like a secondary sch girl to them.

customer irregularity is the thing which i hated most. the no. of customers always seem to shuffle between extremes in short timespan. mornings are often manageable as i can count the no. of customers with both my hands and legs. come lunchtime, and there will suddenly be an influx of students and office people into the store, sending us into service frenzy as they "fight" with one another to get our attention.

there are two mealtimes for full-timers working from 10-10. sometimes i will have to work from 10-10 if there are not enough staff for my dept. but most of the time i will work from 10-6 or 2-10 or 1-9 as im a part-timer. we will take turns to clear the rubbish and the disposal of cardboxes to the recycling at the ground floor.

just an overview of the new job. in my next post i will write about the interesting encounters and my rants for ugly singaporeans.

off to bed for now.

good night!

thanks for the comments too.

A tribute to the King of Pop, here is Heal the World by Michael Jackson for you. A lovely and meaningful song.

sometimes love just ain't enough

2009-07-09T02:03:00.001+08:00

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

i want nobody, nobody, but you

2009-06-09T02:35:00.003+08:00

Last week was absolutely fun-filled.

For almost everyday, a group of SK alumnus (batch 1 & 2 specifically) met up for a string of never-ending F&F.

FOOD and FUN.

It all started from our simple wish to spend an uber memorable time with Willie before his enlistment last friday. As everyone looked really forward to seeing each other again everytime we part, we ended up meeting up everyday even after Willie has booked in.

Kudos to our dear KFD (kosen-rufu driver) to ferry us around in his KFC (kosen-rufu car) for endless fun and excitement. Thanks Qi Sheng! (Qi Shee)

From badminton @ Tampines Sports Hall to ping-pong @ Serangoon.
From lunch @ NYJC's nearby coffeeshop to supper @ Chomp Chomp.
From supper @ Toa Payoh Lor 5 to a race with the police to avoid getting booked.
From Penny's Chanel to Jianli's Lucky.
From Oleander Towers to Cherry Hill Garden.
From Russell Peters to Mr Brown.
From SD Sports Day to 3 Steps Forward meeting.
From Bedok 85 to Whampoa Food Centre.
From pussy-belt to SUAD (shut up & drive)
From Mrs Khoo's mouth-watering specialties to McDonald's $2.50 breakfast.
From Willie's place to Penny's place to Bryant's place.
From mahjong with no pimples to mahjong until outbreak due to lack of sleep.
From acquaintances to buddies and best pals in comradeship.

These are just the bulk of our whole lotta fun. The list is longer in actual fact. I just hope that the bonds of the alumnus will never stop deepening.

Enough catching-up with them.. (it is never enough BUT it has to end somewhere or else Qi Sheng's petrol expenses is gonna rocket into the sky)

Up next, my SIM monkey friends and also my other good friends!

2009-05-28T16:47:00.002+08:00

"So how are you going to spend your holidays?"

GOOD QUESTION.

While studying for my examinations, i already set that thinking at the back of my head. I then decided to settle with what i really desire.

I am going to take a break! (isn't that telling the obvious)
No. A R-E-A-L BREAK.
I'm not going to work this holiday. No 9-5 office jobs for me.

"So how are you going to spend your time?"

Easy.
Do the things i like! =D

For example:

GOING TO THE LIBRARY
Hell yes i do love going to the library! Spending my afternoons there relaxing with my favourite authors, reading something of my interests and learn many new things. As i am almost done with my collection of Tess Gerritsen's thrillers, it's time to hunt for a new storyteller. Had just finished reading a book by James Patterson last night, it was great. So, for now, James Patterson is the name.

A STAYOVER AT GRANDMA'S
I can never be bored at my grandma's place. I can learn cooking from her, chat chat with her, running errands for her, or simply having afternoon naps by her side. Life can be good and simple if you take things at your stride. I just brought her on a shopping spree at ViVoCity's Daiso. Yeah, she was so happy with all the $2 stuff. I knew she would. Haha. Then we went to Chinatown's OG where i bought her a blouse that caught her attention at first sight. It turned out that she is a better shopaholic than me. She wouldn't get tired even after hours of non-stop shopping! My grandmother, ladies and gentlemen.

SD SPORTSDAY + YWD FORMATION DAY
Had received a notice from my chapter chief that i am being put in-charge of the culture item for formation day, which is Dance. Oh well, good news comes in pair, don't they? Choreographer for both sportsday and formation day. Way to go Stella!

LOTS OF CATCHING UPs AND FILLING INs
This holiday will be a good time to meet up with old good friends. Primary school bestie, primary school godsis when she returns from Melbourne, sec sch friends, gakkai friends, and my fun-loving monkey friends from SIM. So many gatherings and reminiscings!

JIANLI'S COMMISIONING & COMMS BALL
My dear is going to be a full-fledge Officer this June. I'm really proud of him. At the same time, I must make sure I look good too as his girl. =)

SK INDEPENDENCE CAMP 2009
Tmr will be the start of our 2D1N camp for our K2 juniors in SK. We will be heading to Sci Centre first thing in the morning. I'm so looking forward to having a great time with the lion cubs and my fellow kindergarteners!

RANDOMIZING
This category is for all sorts of miscellaneous things like doing cross stitches, playing games, facebooking, day dreaming, watching my fav 4.30 Taiwan drama, giving tuitions, going out with my boyfriend, badminton-ing etc etc.

I believe this holiday will be a fun-filled one! Cheers to being happy! :D

end of disaster

2009-05-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

Expectedly, today's Corporate Finance was tough as well. But alas, it's over. And i shall not dwell on it anymore.

EXAMS ARE OVER BABY!

And that spells the beginning of my 3+ months holidays! WEEEEEEE~

First thing to do tmr: wake up early and think of dance steps!
Was appointed to be the showcase IC for SD Sportsday. Sigh, is like rubbing salt on my wound being rejected from SYDC. BUT STILL, the heart counts. So i will make the best out of my ability for ITAC to put on a good show on 7 June! JIAYOU :D

Second thing to do tmr: GO FOR CROCS SALE!!!! Ya as our exams hall is just next to the hall for the Crocs sale, our shopaholic stint gets turned on immediately to the large banner outside with the word SALE. Hahaha. Girls ma. What you expect.

Bringing you this song: Happy by Natasha Bedingfield.

ColorGenics

2009-05-18T11:44:00.002+08:00

Heard much rave about the ColorGenics personality profile.
Curiosity kills the cat. So here it goes:

Name: Stella Wee
Date: 5/17/2009
Colorgenics Number: 51243607

You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

You are trying to improve your position and prestige - be it in your life or in your workplace. Things are, at this time, OK - but they could be better. You feel that it is essential that you break down any opposition that could possibly lurk in the shadows. You know that you are quite capable of achieving this set goal because you have to and because it is essential to your self esteem.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

Well, it is rather accurate to a quite a large extent. You may want to try it out HERE

disastrous week

2009-05-14T23:53:00.003+08:00

This year's examiners are horrible! downright horrible.

I am so going to die on my MM.

Suxian is going to die on her POA.

Alan is going to die on his Sociology.

Chester is going to die on everything, i think. Hahaha jk.

Our first paper was Principles of Accounting on last thursday.
When i realised the Cashflow wasn't one of the questions that came out (which it 95% did every year), i sian 1/2 already.
When i could not balance my Profit&Loss account and the Balance Sheet, the more sian i became.

However, Dr Libon Fung was a good UK lecturer, as compared to our local lecturer Balwant Singh. I learnt more from him in the 2-days revision lectures as compared to Balwant in the past 1/2 year. I am just disappointed in myself for not doing as good as i expected it to be.

The killer one was Management Math. Already am i so weak in math, plus the "hints" on the topics which the new UK examiner aka frigging old man Dr Alan Pryor gave us to bang on, didn't come out. I feel quite like strangling him. I heard from my friend that one person cried while doing the paper. I was crying in my heart though. This was the first ever paper which i felt like leaving halfway after it started. The paper was from 2.30 to 5.30. At 4pm, i am already shaking my leg. See how bad it is. Oh my, i am so going to retake next year. My friends whom wanted to count on it for a 1st class were equally disappointed. SIGH.

Yesterday was Marketing. Yes, my favourite! I am SO going to bang on it man, even though it was on the day right after MM. Did manage to self-boost my morale up after a sumptous dinner my darling grandma cooked. So was pretty well-prepared.

Similarly, Patricia did wanted us to bang on certain topics which she thought had high chances of appearing this year. Luckily i did not intend to spot. I studied 10 out of 13 topics, leaving out Distribution, Corporate Social Responsibility and Customer Relationship Management. I am so fortunate that NONE of these 3 topics came out. Suxian say i very pro, i think so too. Haha!

But yesterday's paper is a much tougher one as compared to our prelim. Dr Haider Ali's questions sounded like GP paper, where he gave us quite a # of two-sentences questions.

Like "Many people nowadays are not willing to spend their money on speciality goods. Discuss how it is relevant for marketers to improve on their branding and pricing techniques in order to cope with this phenomenon."

I crossed it out immediately. Lol. Cos i already forgotten how to deal with this kind of qn. I prefer those with specificity.

Like the one which i did to test us on the buying behaviour of consumers and the governing mechanisms on 1. Asset Specificity 2. Information Asymmetry 3. Bounded Rationality 4. Opportunism.

I love Marketing a lot! (as if it is not obvious enough)

Hope it will be the paper that would not dash my hope for a good pass.

My last paper is Corporate Finance. Another @!#%$ paper. Good luck to me.

Ok I shall head my butt off to bed and put a full-stop to end my rantings.
.

platonic friendship

2009-05-02T23:53:00.004+08:00

Someone has ever asked me before, "Do you believe in platonic friendships?"

Yes, of cos.

I mean, WHY NOT? I was naming a handful of guy friends at the back of my mind whom i am very close with and never will we cross the boundary. It is certainly plausible.

Can men and women be just friends? I googled it and this is what i found.

"Men and women can't be real friends. Blame the sexual tension that almost inevitably exists between any red-blooded, heterosexual man and woman."Westerners' definition. This is Singapore. Null.

On the other hand, Wikipedia states, "Platonic love is a deep and spiritual connection between two individuals: within such a relationship there does not exist any form of sexual connection or sexual elements."A more sound explanation i suppose.

In my point of view, a guy and a girl can be very good friends as long as they keep certain proximities in good control. Sensibly, you can't just talk EVERYTHING under the Sun with a friend of the opposite gender. Except your gf/bf la. Hehe.

Unless you are single and available and are willing to consider anyone good that comes along. Friendships may start out platonic but there is a definite possibility that with time people will become more fond of each other in which case the boundaries start to blur. Up to that point, be sure of your feelings and be rational.

If you are attached and yet you do not want to miss out having great buddies of the opposite gender, be sure that you make it clear that is all it is about.

I dislike people who doesn't make their stand clear and just allow the ambiguity linger. And when everything has gone beyond control, they make silly rejections that sounds like, "I love you, but I'm not in love with you." In some very sad cases, the party is deeply hurt and it will have adverse impact on the friendship which both of them had painstakingly developed.

That would be such a pity, really.

2009-05-02T01:43:00.002+08:00

I spent no effort in choosing green apples today. Amazingly, all those that i laid my hands on were super fresh. Today is my lucky day!

Happy Labour Day to all ;)

Life, live it.

2009-04-26T07:24:00.002+08:00

Images of the audition are still so vivid in my mind. Flashbacks of the moments, the moments that I looked like a big fool standing there trying hard to figure herself out while no attention is gonna be wasted anymore on her, is haunting. Ha, all I could do was to smile and have my mind and heart crumbling inside. I'm so glad that Lester and Freddy (or Freddie) treated me nonetheless as though it was obvious that I was the inferior one out of the 3.

In life, you may not win in everything u do. There will be a balance of gains and losses. I guess this is the impt fact everyone must face though it is difficult to accept. Well, I'll just treat it as i had already fufilled that lofty and wild idea of mine, and now, back to reality. I bet this is the most meaningful way to celebrate my 21st; to see very clearly for myself where I stand and the testament that I really suck at hip hop! Heh. But at least I'm good in badminton; I bet no one there can beat me to it. See? Life is fair.

I guess i'm getting a lil wired up here waking at 7 and doing a blog post. I just thought I should express it and pen down where my feelings take me, whenever.

And one more thing, what does it mean when someone whom had once been very close to you treats u now like a stranger? I'm beginning to question myself on the validity of my friendships. Is it true that that the fond memories that i had with my friends do not stand the test of time? Or are there any external factors that caused the strain? Alright, I'm gonna hope someone will understand my viewpoint. Everything happens happens for a reason. To make someone grow, to make someone realise. Grow from the lessons learnt, realise what has to be realised, do what can be done, move on. It is important to someone whether you base your friendship on trust and your own encounters with her. If you can rem for who I am 2 yrs ago, I would like you to know that I am still the same (perhaps stronger and wiser?) the last thing I want is to lose my friends especially if we had been through the happy and tough times together.

Hmm, I'm sure that I did bring something home from the audition. Stella, 要加油加油再加油！

*posted on Sunday, 26 April 2008, 8.37am*

That's the way it is!

2009-04-23T12:00:00.004+08:00

I almost didn't want to wake up today.

This is the 4th day of my week having morning lectures throughout. 2 of which were straight 10am-5pm(equivalent to my sleeping hours). Frankly speaking, it's burning me out. @_@zzz~

I'm still so young! In fact i should feel ashame if i compare myself to Sensei. Sigh.. Must reflect.

So to me, today's lecture was the longest and the most boring one, per se. Management Math still; worst. The time literally ticked by. Luckily my monkey friend Suxian got some juicy news and we sorta "gossip-ed" abit. Hehhh~

We must keep this in mind:

"Education is a bonus bestowed upon us the fortunate ones!"

Lol this post sounds like self-motivating speech i have here. In any case, 我豁出去了啦!

For an end, a song for all my friends during this tough period.

"That's The Way It Is" by Celine Dion

I can read your mind and I know your story
I see what you're going through
It's an uphill climb, and I'm feeling sorry
But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called ~~love~~ grades

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
~~Love~~ Grades comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When you question me for a simple answer
I don't know what to say, no
But it's plain to see, if you stick together
You're gonna find a way, yeah

So don't surrender 'cause you can win
In this thing called ~~love~~ grades

When you want it the most there's no easy way out
When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
~~Love~~ Grades comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

When life is empty with no tomorrow
And loneliness starts to call
Baby, don't worry, forget your sorrow
'Cause ~~love's~~ Muggers gonna conquer it all, all

*posted on Thursday, 23 April 2009, 12.22pm @ SIM Library*

That's the way it is

2009-04-17T00:22:00.003+08:00

for no particular reason, my lappy's adapter wire got burnt up last weekend. Perhaps it was fed up that i was still using it when i am supposed to be seriously mugging my head off.

all these while without my lappy is indeed fruitful. i've done quite a few MATHS papers which i had no other choice or to fail.

i swear i'm not gonna take any math unit next yr, the numbers are killing meeee... theory papers rock! and a good news hohoho: i scored pretty well for my Marketing! Accounts, needless to say, all of us failed. (all=monkey friends) and to think that we even compared to see who has the lowest mark; obviously Chester. LOL

Congrats to Jessica for achieving her goal of getting into NP Nursing. And congrats to me too! Another makan + balek kampung buddy for me. =P

My shopaholic monkey friends and I went to VivoCity today. They gave me the freedom to choose my own 21st birthday pressie. This is ultra sweet of them! =)

Apart from their pressie, I got another pressie frm mum (frm her new bf rather) Yeah, which is what I am using now; an iPhone. I didn't tell my dad who got it for me and told him it was bought with my savings. Didn't want to stir up his feelings. Oh well, that's the reason why im not REALLY excited abt it. Nothing much to rave about, except that I'm quite amazed by the smooth transition it has as compared to other touchscreen phones. The applications are as good as they claim.

Next Sat will be my 21st birthday. No fanciful parties or celebration, just a good dinner at my grandma's place with both my parents hopefully, and the lil gatherings with my friends before and after exams. Jianli has also promised to make up for it upon his return. And I'm really happy with everyone's efforts for me! Xie xie da jia~ heee..

Ok I'm heading for bed now. It's quite a feat blogging so much through a phone. Will look forward to endless mugging. Be optimistic is the key. Forge on my friends!

it's APRIL!

2009-04-02T01:07:00.006+08:00

YES, it's April.

Awww... I know it's exams period but let's cast that aside for the moment k?

To me, April is my favourite month. Haha.

Okay, except for it being the exam period and the first outbreak of priesthood issue on April 24 1972, April is so filled with happy things!

For eg., April is the month where the beautiful Sakura flowers in Japan are in full BLOOM!Overlooking Mount Fuji, what a breathtaking sight!
Also in April 28 1253, Nichiren first chanted the title of the Lotus Sutra Nam-myoho-renge-kyo, and later inscribed the mandala of the Gohonzon.
More on a personal level, April 9 is Jianli's birthday. April 10 is our anniversary. And April 25 is MY BIRTHDAY! wahahaha~

This year will be my 21st birthday.And i will be spending the night with my dearest Paya Lebar South D3 members cos that day happens to be our zadankai. As for my friends, no worries, i understand that u ppl are having exams, but i do accept belated gifts lol! Will ask u guys out then hehehe. To Jianli: wait till you come back from Brunei! NO ESCAPE!

So, for this month's 音乐日记, it will all be my favourite songs! Hmm yes, my all-time favourite is the one you are hearing now, All My Life by KCi & Jojo, my #1 classic! Certain to play for my wedding. Hohoho. To my friends: All my life, I pray for someone like YOU!

Follow by my fav. band Linkin Park's What I've Done. Chose this song cos its MV is very touching. "What i've done, i face myself, to cross out what i've become"

梁靜茹-可惜不是你 is the song that accompanied me when i was very down in 2007. i love her voice very much. She has many other nice songs too. Queen of Love Songs indeed ;)

Shania Twain's You're Still The One is dedicated to Jianli. Let's beat the odds together!

Last on my list, Ken Hirai's Kiss of Life. Well, the reason for liking this song is cos i love the Japanese drama Love Revolution. Super romantic can. Haha! Rem that was in 2002 when i was in sec 2, if im not wrong. Great memories.. Dedicated to everyone!~ Hope everyone of you will receive a Kiss of Life with the one you love. Muackssss :)

Omg i love my songs list! :D

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-29T23:33:00.017+08:00

Were you part of it?

I hope so!!

Reminded my sister to switch off the lights at home but i don't know if she had done so. It coincided with our discussion meeting yesterday and so i was not home.

Anyway, i feel pretty strongly for it as i am an "amateur environmentalist" myself. Haha. It dun have to be something great you do. There are actually many many ways you can contribute your part everyday.

Hmm.. For example, for me, i buy those packets of A4 recycled paper from Daiso for my school work. Cheap and environment-friendly. And it was easy to spot my assignment from the stack cos it's the only set which is cream in colour. hahaha. ok jokes aside. Bring your own water and avoid buying bottled drinks, if so, try to dump them in recycling bins. I've tried having 2 plastic bottles in my bag for TWO days cos i couldn't find any recycling bin @ the places i went to. And also, try to photocopy/print on both sides of the paper. You would be paying for the same amt for either one-sided or both-sided anyway, so why not save paper and the save up on the load you gonna carry? Makes sense rightttttt.......

Did a little google-ling cos i wanted to see images of the World in support for this event. It was very encouraging, really. Would like to show some images that wowed me:This was the 1st pic that caught my eye and set me laughing. Creative indeed, as always for Google.

Burj-Al-Arab

The Atomium in Belgium

London Tower Bridge

Canberra

Christ the Redeemer Rio de Janeiro

Sydney Habour Bridge

And finally,
Our famous liew-lian

Well, Singapore is indeed one of the 2700 cities in 83 countries that participated in this year's Earth Hour. SIM is also one of the 578 local participants and we had aggressive adverts all over school and even on our homepage.

It all began 2 years ago with one city - Sydney. And now, it's no longer Sydney alone, but the world. The event went global :)

If you have not done anything for Mother Earth, it's time.

*posted on Monday, 30 March 2009, 12.24am*

bow-wow!

2009-03-24T01:59:00.002+08:00

i grew to love dogs more and more. i used to fear Jianli's husky alot, like super, cos of his massive size. but now it is so delightful to see Lucky. and he will bite his toy ball to me whenever i go to their house, wanting me to play with him. haha. and he loves massages too, especially at his stomach. i think most dogs like massages! xueyun's Cookie enjoys massages on her back =)

however, i will think twice to keep a dog of my own next time at my own house. after watching Marley and Me, and 10 Promises to my Dog, i think i will be super upset when my own dog dies. Jianli feels the same way too. so, in order to spare us from the agony for the loss, i must think twice!

well, time to restart my engine for serious study sessions with my monkey friends. i mean, dead serious. and NO monkeying allowed.

JIAYOU!!!!!!!!

music

2009-03-19T00:27:00.008+08:00

Weather has been rather unpredictable these few days.
Some friends of mine had taken ill, and i'm down and restless with flu. argh so irritating!
Aplenty water, fruits and rest are vital to maintain a strong immune system.
Take care my friends!

In any case, i had decided to edit my blog to add more colours so that it would look livelier. And i have always loved to listen to music that suits my mood. Some are timeless pieces, while others are fashions that will not stand the test of time.

I dun really fancy those with unmeaningful and lousy lyrics like Britney's Womanizer for eg, practically the whole song revolves around "You're womanizer" and nothing else. However i do listen to it cos the beat of the song has an uplifting effect on me. Apologise by Timberland is another one. The song just consists of "It's too late to apologise. It's too late..." and it goes all over again.

Pop songs can have meaningful lyrics too. Like Rihanna's Take a Bow on a cheating boyfriend (now playing), Shayne Ward's Breathless on his girl (i like the babies part), Dance with my Father by Luther Vandross on father's love, Patty Smyth's Sometimes Love Just Aint Enough on unacquainted love and so many many more.

And funky ones like Plain White T's 1,2,3,4; this is really a cute and meaningful song, i love to watch its video too heehee.

But still, my all-time favourites are good olddddd classics. Heh. I'll upload my favourite song next month cos, HEY! it's April!! :D

Everyone has their choices of songs they like. What's yours? :)

*posted on Thursday, 19 March 2008, 2.27am*

personality test

2009-03-10T01:47:00.002+08:00

If you have the time, you may want to try this. For me, it is 88% accurate. 8 out of 9 questions. I am not seductive for goodness sake! hahaha

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

uncertainty

2009-03-04T14:11:00.002+08:00

received SSA Times yesterday.
saw the advertisement for the cultural group open house!
is rather tempted to challenge myself to join the dance crew.
but i have my reservations..
sigh, hope that i can have a definite answer after putting in more daimoku.

gambatte!

John's story

2009-03-04T00:58:00.002+08:00

The testimonial which was shared during the chapter prayers meeting just now at TSC was indeed heartening and inspiring. I hope many have heard of John from Alexandra chapter. I'm truly humbled by his wonderful testimonial as this is the first time i've heard of him.

A young man with lofty aspirations as a medical practitioner found himself paralysed from neck down for no reason. His internal organs as well as his visibility were affected, and soon he found himself bedridden in a world of darkness. His doctors told him that it was totally impossible for him to stand up and see again, and it would be lucky enough if his condition does not deteoriate.

Leaders and members from his chapter gathered 2-3 times a week for MORE THAN A YEAR to pray for him. How supportive they are! Imagine that you are engineers, lawyers, bosses, executives with families, i really respect their unwavering spirit.

For those whom studied Biology, you know it is impossible for damaged nerves to grow back. And this is not the case for John. His determination was so strong that he would visualise his nerves growing inside of his eyes and body while chanting. He believes that by combining with the law of the universe, he could take things which were impossible for a change.

After he was able to move around, he would walk slowly along walls, touching the things around him, while his vision regain bit by bit. His boss in an American MNC did not abandon him and continued to use him despite knowing his inability. He often goes on overseas trips, and fell down frequently due to his blur vision. I truly admire his perseverence.

Today, he was able to move around like a normal person and talk like anyone of us. He even drives a car of his own. One of his doctors even started chanting after his recovery. He showed us a clip after that about his road to recovery. On him not being able to even hold up a spoon to feed himself, and during physiotherapy, he summing every ounce of his energy to push himself to walk a few steps.

This would be the most touching episode among all the prayers meeting i had attended.

*posted on Wednesday, 4 March 2009, 1.28am*

what a wonderful world

2009-02-26T23:07:00.004+08:00

heard this song on my way back from class.
i think it suits my feelings well! :D

opening your heart means opening yourself to the many beautiful things around.

i have great friends around me, that is the best i can ask for.
Especially Suxian and Chester! my SIM study-mates cum monkey friends. Though you two will not read this but you made up most of my memories in sch. Thanks!

i thank all those people who want me to be happy.
i am.

and i really hope i will stay this way forever.

*posted on Thursday, 26 February 2009, 11.12pm*

2009-02-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

once you pass the threshold, you feel geared up without any need for external motivation. you are self-motivated. that is how i feel now. sometimes i would find studying so much a joy that i never think that i would need to sleep. but i dun like numbers still. thats why i dun find myself attracted to management maths. this is the last unit in my list that i ever want to touch at all.

dream a little dream of me

2009-02-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

yesterday i had a very cute dream. i dreamt of my own baby boy. LOL. i dun even dream of getting pregnant and suddenly a baby boy appears in front of me. he is so beautiful! and has very nice features too; definitely not a resemblance of me, probably his father whom i dunno who is it.

well this dream is super random i can say, cos i am not one whom everyday has the desire and fantasize myself getting hitched. but this dream is really beautiful :)

friends around me are getting attached and getting hitched in double meaning (married/broke-up). it is nice to see two people with the same aspirations towards their future getting together, hopefully not tempermental where it will cause recurring waves of heartaches and despair.

have been working hard for my revisions as my prelims will be starting on the week after next. believe that other Unis will be having exams soon too, in April.

recently have been thinking hard on how can i contribute more to ITAC. Other than contacting and homevisiting members. Have this crazy idea of choreographing a dance for ITAC, for no specific purpose. Heard that we may have a ITAC Night similar of that 3 years ago. Hopefully it will put the dance into gd use. but yet, it is still a far-fetched idea as i do not have any dance background except for the Street Jazz course i attended in Old School more than 1 year ago. after my exams, hopefully i am able to conceptualise this idea of mine into realism.

everyday i am living happily cos i know he wants me to. hope that he is safe and sound in Taiwan with my prayers to him. Jiayou! Exactly one week more. hurhurhur

*posted on Thursday, 19 February 2009, 11.57pm*

post by a night owl

2009-02-03T02:38:00.003+08:00

It has been longgggggg since i last posted!

Hope the Chinese New Year has been "enriching" for everyone in term of our pocket capacities. Heehee. And the good food, definitely. CNY is the period where most ppl fell into a food frenzy with the galore. I'm no exceptional of course!

One thing that i have to confess is that i have became a mahjong addict during this period. Reason being that i have mastered the game for less than a year and i am eager to put what i've learnt into "good use". So pls, no more mahjong jio-ing k! i needa study la.. wahaha

Well, time flies and here comes the romantic month of the year - February.

Wanted to post some nice and "trendy" love songs but most of the songs i adore are good oldies. so here you go, really nice oldies for Valentines! Be sure to listen to all 5.. hee.

I realised i "speak" in a DJ way, probably i listen too much of CLASS 95FM recently especially from 9pm-1am where Yas is hosting CLASS 95 Love Songs. Love to listen to Jean Danker hosting CarTunes too. I am captivated by the way she speaks more than i am interested in the programme.

coming back to the topic - Valentines' Day. believe some couples would have planned the agenda for a romantic night. or the boyfriends would have in mind some tear-jerking surprise to please their girlfriends. love makes the world goes round. i love LOVE! though Jianli will be in Taiwan on V Day, i believe that it is just formality; everyday should be V Day ma. Wad's important is not to have an impoverished heart. :D

Well exactly a month to prelims, not yet the nerve-wrecking stage, but starting to feel the jitters. that's why i'm here, revising for my accounts :(

ok, shall look forward to the Subway breakfast later on with Elleen!

off to bed... good morning!

*posted on Tuesday, 3 February 2009, 3.35am*

if you want rainbow, be sure to take on the rain

2009-01-15T23:10:00.005+08:00

Don't you think that the weather nowadays is getting cooler, especially in the night time?
Yesterday evening while i was studying in school, at a bench on level 4, it was so windy that my body could not fight the chill even with my sweater on. i remembered reading the day before that the temperature in certain parts of Thailand went down to a shocking 4 degrees celcius. In addition, consumers could actually look forward to enjoy mandarin oranges from China at a lower price this year, but due to the unfavourable climate unfortunately, the price will be same as last year's. I think the world climate is changing, slowly day to day, yet drastically when we come to realise it. it is affecting everyone in every way, where negativity outweighs positivity! :(

While i was on my way home, i saw my primary school band junior Joanna. i was about to greet her when i saw her putting her head on the shoulder of another girl. even though i was pretty open about homosexuality, it is a different thing when it is in fact happening to your friend. i hesitated and in the end i decided not to, as i was afraid that she would see through me from the look in my eyes.

haahaha. i know i shouldn't laugh. but, Singapore lost terribly to Iran by 6-0. it was like a bombshell to everyone who was watching the news on the bus. we were bowled over when the newscaster brought us the disappointment. Surprising, i could not find the report on CNA's webpage. Not a glorified thing after all..

yet, i was overwhelmed when i saw Mr Ong in the News. Mercy Relief had contributed a total of 1.2 billion of funds for the reconstruction project for the children in Sichuan.

So many things can be happening in the world in a single day. But who in this world is able to embrace everything? Nobody. Yet the world is for us to change.

Let's do our part!

*posted on Thursday, 15 January 2009, 11.56*

monday blues... not

2009-01-12T15:00:00.002+08:00

Aloha..

Was studying just now and we thought it'd be a great idea to steal some time to come into the library to enjoy the aircon and to surf the net. Heh heh. So here i am.

We're now into the second week of the new year so hope everyone is doing well coping with their busy schedule. :)

For me, i have nothing fanciful or happening. Just living my life to the fullest everyday hoping that something good would come along. heehee. got my hair trimmed last wed at a salon near my grandma's place. and wad.. ya, my sis started her secondary life this year too. at St. Anthony Canossian Girls. i brought her all the way to school at Bedok for the first day, feel so much like a parent myself! haha..

last Friday night, my district YMD Wei Sheng phoned me at around 11+. he was with a PGR plus zone and region chiefs. the PGR has decided to enshrine the ghz and so it happens that the next day is the deadline for submission. and he came to my house at 12 midnight to let me sign the form. wow, i think. kofu is happening every min around the clock, tirelessly. the next day, i met him again coincidentally at the bus stop near my grandma's place (he lives nearby). he was on his way to homev a newly abroad FD sec 1 student in our district. i am really encouraged by him. as his counterpart, i should work as equally hard as him to promote growth in our district.

just paid my examination fees last Friday and i am starting to feel the exam "aura" around me. yeah.. work hard, and smart =D my exam period falls on 7th May to 21st May. Exactly 2 weeks. I think nobody will be in the mood to celebrate birthday in late April and Jianli will be in Brunei by then. so i guess i will have it simple. =D

Ok, got to go! Suxian is reading my blog post lol!

63 words

Typingtest

Try this, it's pretty fun.

*posted on Monday, 12 January 2009, 3.25pm @ SIM library*

monday blues

2009-01-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

vomited in school today.

didn't take breakfast, so all that came out was plain water and gastric juice.

eek!

hais. something is wrong with my body, maybe i am too tired.

didn't attend marketing lecture as a result.
what a waste! there goes an opportunity to learn.

i went for paya lebar all chapter leaders meeting tonight though.
and i am so glad i went :)

A executive honourary MD Mr Wong was there, and i enjoyed his encouragement very much. Although he was nearly 80, he spoke with such zest that he won the applause from all grounds in #03-02.

"没有遇到问题的人不能说自己的信心强"
was etched in mind deeply. i could not agree more with this sentence. what we need to prove the greatness of this Buddhism is none other than our own actual proof. everyone can say that they have a strong faith, but when problems arise one after another, who can guarantee that they wun backslide in faith? this is the actual test of our faith.

"when you go all out for kosen-rufu, your life will be very different, so much so that you do not even have the time to fall sick. because you cannot even afford the time to be sick."
this is one strict guidance. 草创前辈们就是这样成长、这样维持他们的信心. we have alot to learn from them!

"Just like a WD who have to look into the mirror everyday to make sure that she applied the right things on her pretty face, we everyday have to look into the ghz. only then we will have the wisdom to deal with our daily lives. ghz is nothing but the mirror of our own life."
this is the first time i heard something like that. this makes doing our daily practices much more meaningful. with his analogy of a WD looking into a mirror, i got a clearer understanding that ghz resides inside ourselves.

"we have to thank the ghz everyday for giving us the opportunity to be leaders so that we will earn tenfolds of good fortune by endowing with this great mission to take care of our members."

i will wish to hear from Mr Wong again next chapter leaders meeting :)

*posted on Monday, 5 January 2009, 11.45pm*

Life is a mixture of possibilities

2009-01-04T23:10:00.005+08:00

Just feel like sharing this.

It is simply amazing!

Look at how he can combine these 6 songs together.

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
Howie Day - Collide
Five For Fighting - Superman
Angela Ammons - Always Getting Over You
Boyzone - All that I Need
3 Doors Down - Here Without You

With thanks to Chester.

Enjoy! :)

Norwegian Recycling - How Six Songs Collide

*posted on Sunday, 4 January 2009, 11.24pm*

2009 arrives

2009-01-01T13:02:00.006+08:00

A colourful blogskin for a colourful year ahead.

i can't wait to enjoy the 21st year of my life! :)

new year's morning is peaceful and beauteous.
with the morning breeze blowing in my face, my whole house is filled with warm luminescence from sun.
the feeling of a fresh beginning is euphoric.

i feel so revitalised.

yes, a new beginning for all of us.

the road is long, lets make it right this year!

*posted on Thursday, 1 January 2009, 1.24pm*

goodbye 2008

2008-12-31T22:09:00.005+08:00

this would be my 135th post, and my final post for the year.

thinking back, 2008 has been tumultuous in all aspects of my life.

a reunion with my love.
that is the best thing that happened to me in the year.
but people are hurt,
the last thing on my mind.
sometimes we cannot control the way we want things to happen, and love is one of them.
learn to accept when it comes, and brace yourself up when you have to let it go.
as from the movie Moulin Rouge:

"the greatest thing on Earth is to love and be loved"

but nothing is eternal. emotions and feelings are the only rationalisation that men and women coquetted with one another.

along the way, i've tried to walk into the lives of other people.
and i somehow figured out that i should "MYOB". (mind your own business)
some do not want my "pity" as they call it, and for the rest it became a source of affliction.
to them, i was grieve itself.
that was the reason why i lost some treasured friendships too.

well, life is fair. you gain on one side, and you're bound to lose on the other.

so much for my recollection of the year.

Ping Sheng's sms reminded me to set my resolutions for 2009, which i nearly forgot lol.

Well, my resolutions are more of like the same as last years', some modifications maybe.
1. My family members' good health and everlasting happiness.
2. I must do well for my studies.
3. I must take good care of my members and contribute to kofu.
4. To stay healthy and to keep myself FIT! (set by Jianli de. what to do.. must keep up to the name of an Officer's girl)
5. Must be an even better person as compared to 2008.
6. Smile more, cry less.
7. I must continue to read alot.
8. Maintain my faith to never miss gongyo. (which i never fulfill every year -.-)

yup. so far that's all for my resolutions.
so much for 2008, but there are alot alot more not mentioned and are meant for reminiscence and sweet savouring.

another year has passed, live for a better tmr!

I AM GOING TO CHANGE MY MUSIC AND WEB TEMPLATE WHEN 2009 COMES! :D

*posted on Wednesday, 31 December 2008, 11.24pm*

all i want for christmas.. is you

2008-12-26T03:19:00.006+08:00

had just caught a movie, online (hope i dun get caught for it)

Love Actually.

Well, it's a nice old movie to enjoy, especially over xmas. kinda like spice up the atmosphere a little. and it certainly brought laughters and tears. no matter what status you are, how old you are or even across borders. yes, love is all around.

to the guy whom fell in love with his best friend's wife. unacquainted love is rather sad, endlessly and hopelessly. my heart went out to him, or rather my tears. it just flowed uncontrollably. (click on it and you'll get what i mean)

wahahaha.. so emo! it's just a simple movie filled with love all around. i enjoyed it alot.

sigh. sleeping so very late these few days! naughty me.

a belated merry xmas to all.

*posted on Friday, 26 December 2008, 3.46am*

nightmare

2008-12-16T12:06:00.002+08:00

Took a nap yesterday afternoon, and it happened again.

This time, it was a Tamil. But i'm not sure the place.
I was walking to a mrt station where i heard ppl across the street shouting "Dun jump! Dun jump!"
It was a Tamil guy sitting on the parapet of a HDB flat.

And he jumped.

After that, his spirit lingered everywhere i go. until i was so traumatized.

And i think i went crazy in my dream.

Damn. Why do i always dream of ppl jumping off the building?

Sigh, pls dun let it happen again.

On a lighter note, tmr will be the start of holiday! :D
Will be going to Dbl O with ASD peeps. Enjoy..

*posted on Tuesday, 16 December 2008, 12.28pm*

2008-12-13T00:43:00.002+08:00

I know my blog is stagnant, but i can't help it. I am just to lazy to blog.

Have been quite addicted to Facebook, yes i've finally gotten an account.

As the december hols are approaching, everybody has been on toes for the holiday. Myself included. I literally hog onto my lappy 30% of my time at home, minus the 70% used for sleeping, bathing, gongyo. i seldom eat at home. drinking milo is not eat. so most of the 70% is credited to my sleepiness. Sorry dear, i promise to quit after hols start. Forgive me.

isn't the song uploaded well sang? it's to instill some pre-xmas atmosphere here. it's named Believe by Josh Groban. i wanted to buy his collection selling hot off the shelves now. but didn't cos i wanted to save $. and i ended up buying other things. this is wad we termed "paradox of thrift". sigh.

november has been a busy month for almost everyone.
SIM exhibition has been a success, at least our dream is realised.
Friends in other local Unis have completed their exams.
SD kenshu is great.

Have been thinking alot, yes i love to let my thoughts wander. Alot. and i enjoy it.
i dreamt of my future. i think teaching is the career for me. i want to travel around the world. i want to be free. i want to be married to a good man. i want to learn cooking. i and more i. it's just about me and the things i want. what about others? how can i contribute to their future? we should start thinking.

recently, i pondered at the things my friends are doing. sometimes i cannot find a reason to see why are they doing what they are doing. gakkai seems to me more and more like a bureaucratic organisation with lots of hierachies. so many a times we are bounded from doing what we deem fit by those at the top. at a place where human revolution takes place. people dislike one another, friends showing disregard to each other, friends blocking one another on msn. all these are happening. and i dun understand why. i dun wish to see, but it all unfold before me.

why can't we just cohabit under this big family without any fights, jealousy and whatever hidden emotions and feelings?

I WANT TO BE HAPPY, AND I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY TOO!

everything happens for a reason

2008-11-18T00:22:00.005+08:00

shortly after my previous post, i heard a "BOM".
FYI, i am staying at the 3rd storey.
That explains the clarity of the noise.

i dismissed it, thinking that it was just something that perhaps a conflicting couple threw down the block.

seconds after, i heard it again. this time round, it was much louder.
the first thing that came to my mind was, someone jumped down the building.
i knew it was not, when i smelled something burning.

i went over to wake up my dad, who was sleeping very soundly.
once we opened the door, we were blinded by balls of intensively choking smoke.
we went out of the unit, by then, my neighbours were also out.
we bent over and saw roaring flames originating directly below us.

Onlookers opposite at the interchange were shouting "Huay Sio! Huay Sio!"(fire in Hokkien) and signalled us to go down via another staircase.
i took my phone and shut the windows of the house before making our way down.
i wanted to remove the ghz from the butsudan but my dad said dun need cos it was not a big fire.
it was totally pitch dark as the power supply of the entire block was cut off.

almost everyone staying around us evacuated to the ground floor. (my block is in the shape of a long curve so the residents at the other side of the block were not affected)

the recycling bin and the power box above it were on roaring flames.
my dad speculated that someone must have set the recyling bin on fire, which caused the power box to catch fire and explode.
A SCDF fire engine and a Red Rhino arrived shortly and the fire fighters tried to put out the fire using extinguishers, but to no avail. the fire got more intensive and spread to the second storey via the staircase.
my house is on the third storey, and i was really worried. my ghz is still inside the house! :'(
my room (red circle)

to our relieve, the Red Rhino decussated the grass patch and drove right into the block so that the water hose was long enough to extinguish the flames.

the police condoned the area and forbided us to return to our unit as the charred smell encircled the site.
we waited for almost an hour.

when we returned at 3, my whole house had the charred smell. it was unbearable.
we do not have power supply so we can't turn on the fan.
we went out of the house again to take a breather, the CID has arrived by then.

though the smell still lingered in my room, i was too tired and went back shortly to rest.

was stirred awake by my dad opening the gate at around 6. i went over to his room to sleep cos my room was too humid without aircon and fan. truthfully, i was really scared after my dad left for work. cos the whole house was pitch dark. =(
at this moment, my phone beeped. Haha.. Jianli's farewell sms before he leaves for field camp. That did it, i fell asleep at ease. =D

we had no power supply until late morning.
my phone connection wasn't reinstalled until evening.
and till we do not have gas supply yet.

I took this when i went downstairs to dabao.

Whoever set up the fire, intentionally or unintentionally, deserves to be nabbed.

In any case, i am deeply grateful to ghz. i am convinced this is the reason why i refused to sleep early despite being a sleepyhead. if i were to sleep early in my aircon room, i may not have hear the noise and unthinkable consequences could happen if i breathe in too much injurious air in my sleep.

i am going to share this actual proof of mine this coming Sat =D

*posted on Tuesday, 18 November 2008, 1.31am*

cranky and nonsensical

2008-11-17T01:02:00.004+08:00

suddenly, my mind feels so blank.

i dun want to sleep, neither do i want to study.
oh no, i am not doing anything that i am supposed to be doing!

hmm. maybe a run at 7 would clear up my mind a little. (if only i can wake up)

many of my friends are having exams now.
a few looked really stressed.
sometimes i feel like talking to them, but looks like it will not be of any help.
ok, i guess i should care more about myself, tonnes of revision are piling mercilessly which i have yet to do. (wails)
but now we are really busy with the SIM exhibition. as busy as a beeee. BUZZ BUZZ.

sidenote: i suddenly crave for nasi lemak now. lol

ok.. i must force myself to bed now. or else, read WND. it helps. (oops)

good night... buzz buzzz.

*posted on Monday, 17 November 2008, 1.15am*

Susie's wedding

2008-11-11T23:36:00.005+08:00

It was my district ywd Susie's wedding last Sat.
Congrats to her and Jun Liang. They are really very compatible; made for each other indeed.

However, she has to remain as a YWD district leader as i will be transferred to another district instead of taking over.

Soka Ceremony @ TSC. i wasn't present as i had lecture that morning. (SPOT MY FATHER!)

Susie's wedding was very simple and nice.
Not at a hotel but a Tung Lok restaurant in Shenton Way.
As usual for most of the weddings, gakkai ppl are always put at the end of the hall.
But we enjoyed ourselves as if in our own world. Haha.

I was sitted with the youths from my chapter plus Dezmon from Paya Lebar East and Shini from toa payoh zone.
I think we made a name for ourselves, as we were the only table that shouts "HOBEN-BON-DAINI!" when taking pictures.

Our infamous HOBEN-BON-DAINI pic! Front(from left): Elaine(D2), Jersie(CHAP YMD), Lena(CHAP YWD), Shini (TPY zone), Lim(D2). Back (from left): Jasmine(D4), Stella(D3 to-be), Dezmon(PLE chap), Jun Liang(D5), Susie(D5), Wei Sheng(D3), Willy(D5)

We also had our own 3 YUM SENGs with the couple led by Dezmon.
Dezmon is really a great ymd. Sometimes i wonder how come he does not have a gf yet.
Anyway, the 3 YUM SENGs were for:
1. Eternal happiness for the newly weds.
2. Jun Liang to enshrine ghz soon.
3. To produce YMD and YWD chiefs for the future.

COOL RIGHT! hahaha.. gakkai version lai de. hehe.

Elaine and I with Susie's younger sis Ivy.

I think they are going for their honeymoon today, if im not wrong.

My heartfelt wishes to them.
May they 白头谐老，永浴爱河.

早生贵子！

*posted on Wednesday, 12 November 2008, 12.12am*

America decides

2008-11-06T01:24:00.006+08:00

Finally, the Americans have decided.
They want a change, they realised.
Many of the states which voted for the Republicans in 2004 had decided to turn the table around.

Congratulations to Barack Obama, the 44th President of the United States of America.

The main developments include:

Mr Obama is projected to have seized Ohio, New Mexico, Iowa, Virginia, Florida, Colorado, Indiana and Nevada - all Republican wins in 2004.
He is also projected to have won: Vermont, New Hampshire, Pennsylvania, Illinois, Delaware, Massachusetts, District of Columbia, Maryland, Connecticut, Maine, New Jersey, Michigan, Minnesota, Wisconsin, New York, Rhode Island, California, Hawaii, Washington, Oregon.

Mr McCain is projected to have won: Montana, Alaska, Kentucky, South Carolina, Oklahoma, Tennessee, Arkansas, Alabama, Kansas, North Dakota, Wyoming, Georgia, Louisiana, West Virginia, Texas, Mississippi, Utah, Arizona, Idaho, South Dakota.

Watch his winning speech at Chicago HERE

A very powerful and heart-tugging speech indeed. I felt touched by this African-American man whom loves his country so much.

"It's been a long time coming, but tonight... change has come to America,"

"If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible, who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time, who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer," he said.

He said he had received an "extraordinarily gracious" call from Mr McCain.

He praised the former Vietnam prisoner-of-war as a "brave and selfless leader".

"He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine," the victor said.

He had warm words for his family, announcing to his daughters: "Sasha and Malia, I love you both more than you can imagine, and you have earned the new puppy that's coming with us to the White House."

But he added: "Even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century.

"The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. But America - I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there."

Hope for the world has come.
May Peace prevails.

*posted on Thursday, 6 November 2008, 1.40am*

Henderson Waves

2008-11-04T22:14:00.008+08:00

I love Ah Balling's 汤圆!
As far as i know, they have it at golden mile food centre and bedok blk 85 food centre. let me know if they have it at some other places =D
i love yam, red bean and peanut flavour 汤圆.
i dun like the sesame one.

Watched Tropic Thunder also.
it's a brainless but hilarious show.
Tom Cruise is a calafare. haha

Was on our way to Henderson Waves when we met Dezmon on the bus.
We forgot that it's the 1st day of Nov so we are supposed to go for dmkk & sensei video.
so we alighted at TBSC with him.
Sensei is as robust as i last saw him.
Just that he got someone to read his speech for him.
I hope he will be healthy forever!
Mrs. Ikeda still has her very beautiful smile with her.
I am full of admiration.
I want to be like her. =D

We left after the video and headed for Henderson Waves.
It was my first time there at night, it was beautiful!
At the foot of the bridge

On the bridge

Isn't it beautiful?

Unfortunately, as it was not early already, we did not walk through the steel bridge.

We will be back!

I attended BLTC on Sunday at Senja.
I went for the chinese one cos i thought it would be better as i'm going to a chinese dist.
but i realise my depth of understanding was challenged.
though i am currently teaching in a Chinese language centre, it is rather profound to understand the Opening on the Eyes lecture in chinese.
so i went over to the english session after the break.
so that was where all the youths were hiding!
i understood the program well. =)
will upload the photo once the lecturer sent me.
(he is a lecturer in SIM too!)

will be promoted to district 3 on nov 18.
uncertainties start to surface, but as i chant to the ghz, i realised i have no turning back but to forge on and do my best in my current situation.
moreover, i have very good partners in this district, including my dad's good friend Uncle Jin Bao and my good comrade in CFG and now my counterpart, Wei Sheng.
i believe i will grow into a better ywd and a better person. ;)

*posted on Tuesday, 4 November 2008, 10.57pm*

reminisce

2008-11-01T00:29:00.001+08:00

-warning: image heavy entry-

aloha. im back again.

thanks to my marketing assignment which i have to write loads of wordy essays, my writer's block has been "unblocked". so i feel like blabbering now. pardon moi. XD

as you have noticed, i've changed my blog's song to Lion Heart. i'd try my best to change a new song every month so that if anyone reads my blog regularly, he/she wun have to listen to the same old song repeatedly with every hit.

doesn't this song brings back alot of wonderful memories? it is a beautiful song, and i got to know it when i was back in secondary 2. it has meaningful lyrics too, if you do have the time to check out its translation on the web.

(Takuya Kimura is so handsome can) d^-^b

Alright, some pics to upload. some crazy moments. ha.
Qi Sheng, Stella, Jessica

Qi Sheng and i used to be from the same class in Soka Kindergarten. We were from POMELO (afternoon session), and Jess from MAGNOLIA (morning session).
You may be wondering how come the names are so weird?
Sensei named them, i believe he has his reasons. I remember Mrs Tay told us once before, but i dun rem le.
Saw our then-principal Mrs Ng during the concert, she remarked that the first batch should have a gathering soon at her house. Yeah...

we have the same F21 watch!

sister's love

Stella & Qi Sheng

The book that he is holding is our SK notebook issued during our alumni concert back in 2006. designer: ME! (plus some photoshop effort by Elvin)

stayover at my house. we act cute. lol

blanket wrapped

a moment with my world map & titanic poster

while waiting for bus to go for supper

snapple should thank us for this!

we took these at Tampines Central Mcdonalds while waiting for Jianli.
Jessica and her younger bro Harry

"I am not short. I am just fun size"

All these pictures spell how much time we had spent together preparing for the graduation day. will not forget you guys. :)

well, brought my sister to Cineleisure to watch The Coffin. have no idea why she is crazy over this show. like how i was addicted to horrow shows when the days were young. anyway, thinking that seeing Anada Everingham would at least be much of a comfort, this fairy god-sister granted Sandra'a wish.

i really have no clue wad the show is about, and Sandra said she loves it. ?_?
as long as she is happy. =D
we then went to shop around as she wanted to look for a new wallet, but ended up getting none cos she was hard to please.
but still, we went to take a picture card together.
this is how it looks like:

i thought we looked very "yellow". haha. but anyway, it has been long since we took a neoprint together. :)

Attended chapter leaders' meeting at TSC just now. wanted to meet Jianli after he booked out. but i guess his sir(s) have been making things difficult for them again. are all OCS ppl like that? hmm. i guess i can only put in more daimoku and prayers.

off to bed! corporate finance later. blahhhhh~

*posted on Saturday, 1 November 2008, 1.10am*

Kaneko Ikeda

2008-10-31T23:47:00.005+08:00

Kaneko's Story - A Conversation with Kaneko Ikeda

She is a great woman, one whom deserves all our respect.
She came from a humble family, yet she has immeasurable virtues.
I waited so long for the book, got hold of it finally after the SK Grad Day last Sat.
Just finished reading it today.

I am speechless. I AM really touched.

If you can ever imagine how much a woman has done for her husband who has the world on his shoulders, she has done it all.
I have alot alot alot to learn from her.
I hope to be like her, to provide my future husband the support in whatever he does.
Sends him off every morning with a smile, and welcome him home with also a smile. =D

"I am with my husband now perhaps because of some good fortune in my past. And because of that, I am where I am today. I am so grateful. It is all due to the good fortune from my past."

"Good fortune is created by oneself and must be continually accumulated. If not, when it starts to crumble, it falls like rocks tumbling down a hill. This is why I want, as much as I can in my own way, to advance into the future, all the while accumulating good fortune in the present"
-Kaneko Ikeda

Lastly, would like to quote Mrs. Ikeda's motto which i love very much.

"Complaints erase good fortune. Grateful prayer builds happiness for all eternity."

Not only YWDs, but YMDs should read this book too. I simply LOVE it.

Alright, another post coming up after my short afterthoughts =)

recollections

2008-10-29T12:50:00.004+08:00

So long, my friends.

Hope you all have been in great health and spirit.

The past month was a very busy month.
Shuffling between my house and grandma house is a challenge.
Since my grandma house in Aljunied is not as convenient as my own in Toa Payoh, adjustments have to be made and timings have to be considered when i attend school or meetings.
Have been staying there for the past 1 month, due to my sister's PSLE.
Now that it's over, it is time to be back.

Last Sat, 25 October, Soka Kindergarten held it's 15th Anniversary cum Graduation Day for the K2s.
Over the past few months, Jessica and I had been working closely with our Principal and teachers.
We tried to reach out to all alumni from the 1st to the 6th batch; alot of callings and preparations were done prior to the event.
Thankfully, our graduands graduated from SK on a high note on that special day with all the support rendered from alumni from batch 1 to even batch 12.
A big thanks to everyone, especially to Jessica and Qi Sheng =)
Jessica, Stella, Qi Sheng and Elvin - Treasured friendships since kindergarten days

Now with the end of the graduation day, it is time for me to reunite with my SIM comrades in ITAC to prepare for our SIM Exhibition in November.
We are now in the midst of preparing our souvenirs amounting to 1,000.
Alot more preparations have to be done, let's work as one towards the success of our campus exhibition.

Last Sat, i attended the discussion meeting @ Paya Lebar South D3.
This is where i will be promoted to in coming Nov.
I took notice of the YWDs there, they are mainly primary school girls and some slightly older.
The other 3Ds welcomed me warmly and Wei Sheng even said that the puzzle is now finally completed.
Had met up with asst. RHQ ywd chief Dionne about it, and I am further convinced that D3 will be the place of my mission and that i must go all out for kofu.
I am looking forward to the challenge. =)

Looking back, i have been missing alot at SD; being not present for institution meetings, CIC trainings and even upcoming Kenshu in Dec.
But as long as we are contributing to kofu, it will not matter if we are carrying out this noble task at district level or youth level.

Not to forget my friends in school.
I love them alot for all the fun and support given to me when i cannot attend classes that clashes with gakkai meetings or other important events.
Chester, Stella, Sok Cheng and Su-Xian - Chester's 23rd birthday @ Liquid Kitchen on 16/10

Time is always on our side, if we challenge it.

Strive on!

*posted on Wednesday, 29 October 2008, 1.21pm*

life goes on... cherish it

2008-10-16T00:12:00.006+08:00

well, it has almost been a week since CH's passing.
FYI, CH's passing was published in last week's Sunday Times under the Obituaries.
it was uber prominent, as we reserved a quarter page for our dear friend.
i had personally bought a copy to keepsake.

i'm glad to have friends whom have showered me with love and care.
thanks Jianli, Emily, Jessica, Qisheng, Jac, Adeline, zhu tou, niftygoodies and many others. =)

life definitely has to go on, with the spirit of those deceased in our hearts.
every other moment, i'll be contemplating about the fragility of our lives.
i cannot stop thinking about it.
i cannot stop feeling the remorse lingering inside me.
but my conclusion is not to dwell so much on it, which i have been trying not to.
dwelling on it will only make you be afraid of living; to the extent of closing your eyes at night, or even with every breath you take.

pls join me in praying for the happiness of CH family.
hope that this incident will serve as a painful lesson for all of us; a bereavement of a precious friend to teach us the importance of cherish.

let my sorrows end here.
may my mind find peace.

*posted on Chester's Birthday: Thursday, 16 October 2008, 12.46am*

In our loving memory

2008-10-09T14:39:00.005+08:00

I still cannot believe wad had happened.
It all seemed so sudden and unsuspectingly.
That a life can be gone, just like that.
Right in front of my eyes.

I thought that yesterday was yet another day of normality.
Even when my necklace snapped while i was showering, i did not take it much to heart crediting it to my mere carelessness.
But thinking back now, it might have been an anomalistic indication.

I was asked to help out for the sports day of my previous company at Yio Chu Kang Sports Hall yesterday afternoon.
Everything went well, with everyone perspiring their hearts out enjoying the games painstakingly prepared by the committee.
I was the time-keeper for most of the games, and the referee for the captain's ball game(highlight of the day).

The captain's ball game proceeded as planned till the finals, where we have 2 teams vying hard against one another to get the championship.
It was a draw, 1-1.
The committee then decided to play according to the Golden Ball rule.
Chin Huat caught the golden ball. The cheers of victory resounded with my whistle affirming the score and the end of the match.

I saw a team member slapping a Hi5 with CH jubilently.
It was seconds later when a loud thud was heard behind me.

Being a cheeky guy with a corpulent body mass, the first thing that came to me was that he was too tired, or, he wanted to play a trick on us given his high mood after the victory.
But the moment i see his face and hands start to turn pale and black, i know something isn't right.

We were asked not to crowd around him, and medicated oil was applied.
The manager of CH started to do CPR on him.

Then suddenly, CH sat up, startled, as if from a bad dream.
And he laid back on the ground.

Another lady manager then slapped him continuously, asking him not to sleep.
Ambulance arrived shortly and the paramedics took over the rescue job.
By then, CH's heart beat was zero.

After much effort, a very nominal pulse was detected. And CH was rushed immediately to TTSH.

Being the youngest among them, i was told to go home and wait for the news.
One of my closest colleagues began to cry.
It really made my heart fluttered to the max, i cannot stop chanting in my heart.

I was one of CH's good friends when i was still at the company.
He would always buy me sweets and would share with me the snacks he "kapo" from other depts.
At my last day of work a month ago, he even left a friendster comment for me.
When he knew that i was coming for the sports day, he was pleasantly delighted.
One of the last sentences he said to me was, "做referee辛苦吗? 一直要跑来跑去。"

I was on my way back when i received the bad news.
It was too hard to bear, too sudden.
One minute he is there, and not anymore the next minute.
I thought i was partly responsible, for i'm the referee of the game.
I should have look out for him during the game.
I should have ended the game fast.
Many more "I should have..."

I had learnt from one of the colleagues in the main com that CH's eldest bro had passed on exactly the same way as him a year ago after a soccer game.
The doc concluded that it's a genetic heart problem.
Whoever is it, this is ridiculously planned.
That it happened when he was at the 28-prime of his life.

I will be going down to his wake tonight with Jianli.
I will be getting the same type of sweets that he used to buy for me.
Now it is my turn to buy for him.

In loving memory of my good friend and colleague: Liew Chin Huat

*posted on Saturday, 11 October 2008, 3.28pm*

the world is ever-changing

2008-09-17T09:27:00.005+08:00

Lehman's file for bankruptcy sent shockwaves through global financial markets since Tuesday.

Following the collapse of the fourth-largest investment bank in the US, and now it is the country's largest insurance giant AIG, calling aid for distress.

The company has a trillion dollars in asserts and insures loans made by banks around the world. And its demise would have a far greater impact than that of the Lehman Brothers.

Credit ratings agencies, which assess the riskiness of debt, have downgraded AIG - making it more difficult for the firm to borrow money.

Although the US Treasury Secretary Henry Paulson refused to bail out Lehman Brothers, he may deal differently to that of AIG if he feels the damage caused by its collapse to the wider financial system would be too great.

That was what happened to the mortgage giants Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac whom lost billions of dollars during the US housing crash.

"Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac are so large and interwoven in our financial system that a failure of either of them would create great turmoil in financial markets here and around the globe." -US Treasury Secretary Henry Paulson

On Monday, the State of New York announced a "multi-billion dollar financing plan" to help stabilise AIG's finances. Now, in the latest news, the US Federal Reserve has announced an $85bn (£48bn) rescue package for AIG, the country's biggest insurance company, to save it from bankruptcy.

While Barclays does not want Lehman’s "toxic investments in the residential and commercial property markets", nor their surviving, unsettled transactions, it does want the 8,000 to 10,000 US employees of Lehman - which it sees as formidable profit generators. Which i think is a pretty smart move; the workforce is actually the key asset of the company.

On the other hand, taking this as a great opportunity, Obama pushed on a key campaign message - that the Republicans have wrecked the economy. He does certainly knows how to pull on the right leg huh.

The latest twist in a dramatic turn of events on Wall Street: Bank of America is to buy Merrill Lynch in a deal worth $50bn (£28bn) that will create a new financial giant.

While you may be off for a short getaway in Hawaii, the world is changing in such a scale that everything is not the same anymore upon your return.

Survival of the fittest - this is how the world works.

*posted on Wednesday, 17 September 2008, 10.08am*

first day of sophomore

2008-09-15T23:20:00.003+08:00

i'm here to blog about my first day of a new school semester.

Marketing is fun!
For the 1st lecture, at least.
Patricia is a amiable and approachable lady.
And she certainly knows how to make her lecture interesting.

But the sad thing is, refreshments are gone!
It had been a tradition for SIM to serve refreshments during the break.
But not now anymore, like DUH...
I miss the ham sandwiches, chicken mushroom pies, and the piping hot tea. T_T

It feels good to wake up early!
My resolution met with a gd start; woke up at 6am today.
Fulfilling breakfast, refreshing shower, first-hand news from internet.
Most importantly, a dynamic morning gongyo.

i love my new lifestyle.
now i will have to keep this momentum going
and going.

off to bed!

*posted on Monday, 15 September 2008, 11.40pm*

some random thoughts

2008-09-11T15:26:00.002+08:00

every night before i go to bed, i will still think of it.
i will still think about my results.
haven't i work hard enough for it?

perhaps not.
i'm a sleepyhead.
i must change this habit.
and many others.
i will take breakfast everyday and i will exercise regularly.
i will study hard and read more of artcicles to widen my knowledge.
i will strive hard in my second year.

i thought about alot of things recently.
it is good to do some self-reflection, like before dozing off to sleep at night, or when you're on the bus to somewhere.
i thought about friends, family, career, relationship; more of like personal issues.
for now, wouldn't talk much about gakkai and cliche phrases like world peace, happiness of all humanity etc.

friends.
sometimes i do wonder why do they come and go?
can't they just stay with me forever?
it's saddening to see friends once close to you now strangers.
they were so supportive.
everyone is just too busy with their own lives, i guess.
but some will appear, when they need you.
just like taking a break for bread and water when you're tired of delicacies.

family.
as usual, my happy family consists of my dad, my sister, and i.
some children will grow to be defiant in a single parent family.
i'm glad i didn't.
i still see my mum quite often, thankfully.
my sis's PSLE is approaching. will move to my grandma hse temporary to supervise her revision.
my grandma's health hasn't been of good recently, she must be missing grandaunt alot.
and she actually worries about ME, my health especially.
it has always been my wish to take my graduation photo with her, i want her to be proud of me as her eldest granddaughter. i hope she can wait. =)

career.
today is my 2nd last day at my company.
my HR manager treated me to a famous Tom Yum Noodle yesterday @ MacPherson area cos she knows i love spicy food. It was excellent and heavenly. She also treated us to Boon Tong Kee chicken rice last week. it is nice! i shall bring my grandma there someday.
heehee. i love good food! yum yum

back to the topic. i have been thinking on what i want to do in future.
Jianli wants me to be teacher, and i find myself more and more like one being an assistant teacher @ Berries and Kumon. plus a tuition teacher to my cousin.
But i would love some wild job, like... ...SCDF?
i know wild sounds extreme but more of like a physically active job.
a PE teacher, at least, still in the education line ma.
not really keen to put makeup, wear high heels and climb the coporate ladder.
i prefer a uniform job, if you realise it by now.
an irony isn't it? that i am taking a business degree.
oh well, nothing is definite.

*posted on Thursday, 11 September 2008, 4.34pm*

十种不能嫁的男人

2008-09-05T17:04:00.009+08:00

have a good laugh.

CFG

2008-09-04T16:56:00.003+08:00

i was wrong!

there are 10 ywd dancers for CFG, not 8.

my bad, sorry.

more CFG pictures uploaded at Webshots.

重視你的才會跟你吵

2008-09-04T13:36:00.003+08:00

常常我們認為會跟一個人吵架一定是跟他感情不好，其實不然，最容易跟家人吵架，最常跟情人吵架，最會跟好朋友吵架。

想想，原來最常跟我們有爭執的人竟然都是跟我們最親密的人，而能夠跟我們發生爭執的人也對我們有一定的瞭解，所以有人常說『吵架』也是一種溝通，而願意跟你吵架的人，才是真正想瞭解你的人。

有時候我們與人發生爭執時會說『算了』，或者『不說了』，這兩句話其實都是殺傷力很強的話，代表著你不想把你的想法跟他說，不想讓對方瞭解你，也代表你們的感情會停留在原地。

有時兩個人爭執，忽然聽到了一句話『我是為你好』；在感情的世界裡，每個人都很自私，有人常會對你說『我是為你好』，這其實是很不負責任的說法，因為我們會把自己的觀念加諸在別人身上，為他人決定一些事，但是再想想，對對方來說，這樣的方法真的好嗎？你為他決定了事情，但是要負責的人卻是他，這是很不公平的，唯有他自己才能決定什麼是對自己最好，若是錯誤的決定也才不會有埋怨，也才能對自己負責。

『通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人，才是真正愛你的人。』之前聽到陶子在節目中說了一句話'每個人天生就是不一樣'這句話讓我領悟了很多事.因為不一樣~自然而然每個人所看的所想的也不會相同，不要怪別人不夠懂你.

~換個立場~其實我們也不敢說自己有多了；'無聲'是一種無形的、最遠的距離，若能從吵架中表達出自己的想法解他人，總比大家把話悶在心裡都不說出來的好，但千萬要避免在衝動時說出傷害對方的言語，有些話一旦說出口, 就很難收回了

Aries

2008-09-03T11:34:00.001+08:00

牧羊座

他或她应该有的优点
-做事积极、热情有活力
-讲义气
-乐观进取有自信
-勇于接受新观念
-有明快的决断力
-坦白率真
-爆发力强
-勇于接受挑战
-不畏权势

他或她可能有的缺点
-自我中心太强
-急躁缺乏耐性
-粗心大意
-有一点臭屁
-说话欠考虑
-做事瞻前不顾后
-只有三分钟热度
-容易脑羞成怒

期望越大、失望越大

2008-09-02T16:38:00.003+08:00

results are out.

but i'm feeling really really disappointed.

not that i failed. no i passed all my units.

but they are way wAy WAY below my expectations.

my first-class honours is at stake.

i need something to cheer me up.

boohoo!!!

*posted on Tuesday, 2 September 2008, 4.44pm (die-die-die)*

happy teachers day

2008-09-01T11:25:00.012+08:00

i'm not quite in the mood to write but i feel that yesterday's joyous happenings should not be dismissed from this blog (where only drab posts appear, in my opinion)

as usual, i went to Berries for lessons yesterday morning. today is teachers' day and yesterday the children who came for lessons were busy presenting their handwritten cards and gifts to their teachers.

to celebrate this exuberant occasion for the teachers, a board pasted with 18 baby photos were put up at the reception. whose baby photos? of course OURS la.. this is to let those kids play guesswork to match those baby photos to their teachers. haha.

i've received a handful of gifts despite being there for only a month. it felt certainly delectable with a tinge of gratification. it is my job afterall. glad that this kids know the meaning of showing appreciation at their age. =D

"Thank you is a miraculous expression. We feel good when we say it, and we feel good when we hear it. When we speak or hear the words thank you, the armor falls from our hearts and we communicate on the deepest level."
-Ikeda Sensei

Yesterday was also the day of my CFG. It was held at TBSC at 7pm.

The skit went well; everyone was able to bring out their required emotions and was very expressive, be it quarreling or the feeling of dejection. Invited laughters and "wow"s were the best evidence and reward for our painstaking effort over the months.

In addition, the testimonial delivered by Mdm Teh (Trey's mom) from tanah merah chapter was passionate and touching. Tears filled the brim of my eyes after seeing it for myself, the willpower of a woman to stay alive amidst fighting against throat, cervical and nose cancer. She is yet very strong in constitution despite consuming only water, beverages(milo, horlick etc) and a sweet or two occasionally, for the past 17 years. Her spirit is indeed admirable and indomitable. What a strong and independent WD!

A total of 8 YWDs had also put up a mass dance akin to that of the FD MassDance @ MilkRun. I pretty enjoyed myself for the dance. I felt so young and vibrant. ^.^b

I really think that all of our performers really did a great job in unleashing their hidden potential. It is indeed undeniable that every person has that flair in doing anything, as long as they put their heart and soul into making it a reality. CHEERS!

In addition to my friends, my iron ladies gang Jessica and Xue Yun came down to support me. I had also received a beautiful red rose from Jianli. My lucky charm. Overall attendance was 460, 40 short to our target of 500. Nevertheless, we believe that we had already touched most of the hearts of those present with our genuine sincerity. Well done Paya Lebar South!

The Iron Ladies of Soka Kindergarten

Xue Yun and I

Jessica and I

Jessica and Xue Yun

I love this especially cos it is the first time i see myself as 黄老师. 谢谢你，李泰鋆同学！=)

*posted on Monday, 1 September 2008, 11.08pm*

final countdown

2008-08-31T00:53:00.005+08:00

had our final rehearsal today. went through the whole skit 4 times to make sure every loose knots were tied.

everything went on very smoothly.

we are well-prepared.

18 more hours to CFG.

7pm, TBSC.

Paya Lebar South! we can do it!

let our lives shine with absolute happiness! (and others' too)

*posted on Sunday, 31 August 2008, 12.57am*

food for thought

2008-08-27T15:05:00.000+08:00

*posted on Wednesday, 27 July 2008, 3.09pm*

an ephemeral joy

2008-08-26T13:40:00.007+08:00

I came across this blog in a forum. Do have a look.

(An Angel Added To Heaven)

Felt rather heavyhearted after reading the entries. Poor couple fancy losing all 3 of their infants after birth. This really set my mind to think if all these are really predetermined; all her children have the least good fortune to live, not even for more than a day.

Being Christians, they may regard it as a sovereign plan of their lord. But to me everything is just the workings of the mystic law. Perhaps their children's mere existence is just to repay and to eradicate the karma on their parents' account. Sigh. The inexorable cycle of cause and effect. How uncompromising.

Life can be so fragile, this is my afterthought. It comes and leaves quietly without warning. Live your life everyday to the fullest and enjoy every breathing moment. When you fall, pick yourself up and continue the tedious journey courageously. Time waits for no man. Throw yourself fearlessly and wholeheartedly in conducting this symphony of life. A fulfilling life with no regrets!

*posted on Tuesday, 26 August 2008, 2.28pm*

smile for Monday

2008-08-25T11:40:00.005+08:00

One look at this photo and you know we have done it.

She was unexpectedly friendly and helpful towards our requests. The first thing she told us after a brief introduction was that she is happy that the youths are doing something for Peace and that it is good for us to have a religion. Religions are meant to guide us onto the correct path, and that's why she said that she will support this exhibition for a good cause.

We requested for a suitable date as we persisted on a week of exhibiting at a FULL atrium. She was understanding and went all the way to Level 5 to help us check the booking slots for more than once. We decided on 24-29 Nov at Atrium, Level 2 SIM Headquarters. The meeting overall wasn't as bad as we had expected it to be, and seriously there wasn't any harsh exchange of words but pleasant engagement between the staff and students. We felt that Nov is a good time as we can concentrate now on our CFG. I believe this is the result of our fervent prayers. Thank you ghz! =D

Health has recently not been very good for me, as i am plagued with flu virus and a painful throat. For once, i tried sleeping without the aircon yesterday night. It felt better as my throat wasn't that dry when i woke up this morning. Actually sleeping without the aircon is quite comfy, provided that the weather is cooling. Will do that next time when the weather permits, can save on electricity bills too. =)

Hmm. Wad's more..

McWings is nice! Ate last tue during the meetup with Jessica. Haha. But i think it's one of the factors leading to my sore throat. But still, yummy~~~

It has been the 7th week since Jianli's enlistment. So far so good, and im happy he is in good shape despite all the tough training. And he is doing very well too. Thanks ghz for all the protection.. Reflection is important. It's vital at the end of the day to reflect wad have you done for the happiness of another person, and to understand wad he is going through. Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own. There are still alot of things to improve on, meanwhile let's jiayou together.. =D

CFG on the go! Who is interested to come to my CFG? Hehe. It's on 31st Aug, Sun, 7.30pm at TBSC. My dad will be putting up a line dance performance with the adult division and i'll be dancing the item that FD has put up for MilkRun. Come come come!

Nothing much for this week, except for CFG preparations and dmkk. Should be going over to grandma's house to stayover for a few days. Will be bringing her to Singapore Flyer this Sunday with my mum and auntie's family. YEAH!

p/s: Jess! i've found something! OMG. ahah. Click the picture for the webby.

Cheers everyone.

Have you smile today? =)

*posted on Monday, 25 July 2008, 3.07pm*

butterflies

2008-08-22T00:15:00.003+08:00

i can't get to sleep!

gosh, am i feeling nervous for later's discussion?

to be frank, underlying all the courage and determination, there is still a part of me feeling doubtful.

i'm very scared that we will let those who support us down.

Especially Sensei. The thought of failing him makes my heart wrench in pain.

I dun wan to be that unworthy disciple of yours.

Ok look, i've got everything ready. Proposal, newspaper clips, books, SSA Times, CL, laptop charged.

Just hoping to have someone to talk to. Called Jianli but i think he is too tired from the field camp so he fell asleep, feel quite bad actually to be bothering him at this hour.

Luckily Yiheng is online, and he is one that will always take the initiative to talk to me and ask how am i doing etc. very nice guy haha. when i asked him:

§tεllå [ 别人可以看不起你，自己不能看不起自己 ] says:
u think we can succeed?

Kieran - www.i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com - 把勇气放进心里面,把一切不可能实现... says:
yesh. i believe in u all.

Kieran - www.i-kieran-yiheng.blogspot.com - 把勇气放进心里面,把一切不可能实现... says:
we r doing it for a good cause.

he is right man. we are doing for a good cause, so why should i be afraid? when i know there will be buddhist gods to help us, and Sensei to watch over us.

okay... breathe in.. breathe out. have a good night sleep, and wake up tmr as a disciple of Sensei with fresh determination to win.

good night!

*posted on Friday, 22 August 2008, 12.37am*

battles in progress

2008-08-21T16:16:00.004+08:00

Thanks Anonymous for your comments. But hope you dun remain Anonymous forever. Haha.

Forced myself to go work yesterday despite feeling weary. But my flu subsided with a second intake of panadol cold relief and a dosage of strepsils extra strong. (=

CFG rehearsals are getting more intense and frequent as we will be one of the first to kickstart the whole series of friendship gatherings on 31 Aug. Took my dinner at TM and felt rather weird to be alone in Tampines. Haha. Anyway, kiasu and health conscious me bought a bottle of ginseng crysanthemum to prevent those irritating flu bugs from taking over their territories again. Headed to TSC and had a talk with my assistant chapter after the rehearsal. May face the possibilities of being transferred to another district when i get promoted in Oct. I dun mind at all actually. I mean in SD we are well-trained to be versitle and take the lead no matter what are we sent to do kofu. (even for CFG the youths are actually doing all the job heehee)

For SIM Peace Exhibition, SIGH! Latest update is that we had gotten only 2 days and our exhibition will be held in conjunction with the Student Bazaar. The first thing that came to our mind was HUH. But we made sure nothing clashes with our exhibition that was why we postponed our booking. And now they arranged the student bazaar to be together with us to THEIR liking. And they traded this in agreement to fund us partially. The reason is we dun feel justified that an exhibition of such scale should be hidden at a corner for only 2 days. In any case, after having discussion and dialogues with the IICs and Louis, the few of us are prepared to "wage" a battle with her tmr. And Minling and I took leave especially and so we must make sure that a consensus must be made with our highest wisdom and compassion (tolerance). And that her LC (life condition) must be high enough to be accepting towards our requests. Homework are done; newpapers clips of SMU Peace Day and 3.16 Youth for Peace Interfaith Symposium will be brought to spur her up, hoping that she is agreeable to bring SIM to greater heights through this event. Videos and books that we intend to display with our exhibition will be shown to her. And the most sensitive issue, Money, will be handled by ME! Shihan will be coming my house tmr morning to chant and have breakfast together before heading to school.

NMHRGK, pls let it happen. Please.

*posted on Wednesday, 21 August 2008, 5.07pm*

Beijing Olympics Opening pictures

2008-08-19T16:34:00.004+08:00

Photos up for Beijing Olympics Opening Ceremony.
Pls Click the image for my webshots.

Today is a cold day! ):
Popped a panadol cold relief pill to curb my runny nose.

ahhhh-chew!

who is thinking of me?

hehe.

*posted on Tuesday, 19 August 2008, 4.45pm*

oh yeah!

2008-08-18T14:18:00.005+08:00

whahaha..

Tess Gerritsen will have a new release soon on Sept 9!

i think our library will have it only in early October.

plus my reservation, waiting and stuff, i fathom myself getting hold that hotseller-to-be during December.

hmm. we shall see. maybe an everyday trip to the library after its release?

i can't wait.

lalala~

*posted on Monday, 18 August 2008, 4.50pm*

random post

2008-08-15T16:09:00.004+08:00

金牛座（4/21—5/20）

味覺依賴症：金牛座的人在味覺上有一種固執的依賴，比方說，假設一個金牛女生愛上牛肉麵，可能會瘋狂地吃上很長一段時間，直到吃得反胃，便再也不吃牛肉麵了，但她還是會吃牛肉乾。

症狀：吃後就昏睡，或者明顯發胖。

對症下藥：以金牛的根深蒂固的特質，一旦吃定一樣東西，就不會再輕易更改，所以還是閒暇之餘多作運動來得有用。

this is so true! i can eat blk 186 fish noodle soup for 1 week. it's so nice! =P and i tend to fall asleep after meals. hurhurhur.

anyway received this today. like so funny la. Uni liao still got tips? hmm. still, it looks gd and i may print it out to paste on my study corner. share with the students out there =)

*posted on Friday, 15 August 2008, 4.23pm*

Lin Dan enters semi

2008-08-15T10:32:00.005+08:00

Badminton Men's Singles World No. 1 Lin Dan comfortably beat World No. 9 Peter Hoeeg Gade of Denmark in their quarterfinal clash on August 14.

Lin Dan of China (Photo credit: Nick Laham/Getty Images)

Possessing a startling style of play and infamously hot temper, Lin is known by his fans as "Super Dan" and pointed at by critics as "badminton's bad boy."

Lin Dan of China plays a return against Peter Hoeeg Gade.(Photo credit: Nick Laham/Getty Images)

Peter Hoeeg Gade of Denmark in action against Lin. (Photo credit: Nick Laham/Getty mages)

Peter Hoeeg Gade of Denmark in action against Lin. (Photo credit: Nick Laham/Getty Images)

Lin stretches for a return shot against Peter Hoeeg Gade. (Photo credit: Jonathan Ferrey/Getty Images)

The anticipated heart-pounding clash turned out to be a disastrous outing for Gade, who was no match for Lin's super high tempo and unassailable smashes.

"Lin plays with a tremendous amount of variation," said a frustrated Gade. "You cannot move before he hits the shuttle. "I have to be aware and play at a high speed which is difficult to do without making mistakes."

Will Lin realize his golden dream? World No. 2 Lee Chong Wei of Malaysia is likely the one with the answer. Being in different halves of the draw, Lin and Lee would not meet for a head-to-head clash until the finals.

Lee Chong Wei

In Men's Singles, World No. 1 Lin Dan of China it set to clash with his compatriot, fourth seed Chen Jin, for a spot in the finals. Malaysia's gold hopeful Lee Chong-wei will take on Lee Hyun-il of the ROK, the unseeded player who ousted third seed Bao Chunlai of China in the quarterfinals.

Women's Singles World No. 1 player (and Lin's girlfriend) Xie Xingfang heads into a semifinal match against compatriot Lu Lan, who is ranked second in the world. Defending Olympic champion Zhang Ning, also from China, seeks a double crown and will try to outplay Maria Kristin Yulianti of Indonesia to advance to the finals. I anticipate Xie and Zhang will meet head-on in the finals.
Xie Xingfang

Zhang Ning

So, coming Olympic finals for both men's and women's singles is a MUST WATCH. =D

I am not particularly interested in doubles, but i always love watching British Mixed Doubles duo Gail Emms and Nathan Robertson. Unfortunately, they were outplayed by Lee Hyo-jung and Lee Yong-dae of the Republic of Korea 21-19, 21-12 in the quarterfinals of the Olympic Badminton tournament yesterday.
Gail Emms and Nathan Robertson of Great Britain (Photo credit: Nick Laham/Getty Images)

Sigh! My Peter Gade... T_T

(credits to The Official Website of the Beijing 2008 Olympic Games)

*posted on Friday, 15 August 2008, 11.58am*